Breakthru from limbo

Feb 4
Jus done d evening meditation. Deep n I didn't wan to wake up. Same this mornin too.

My mind is a great wheeler. Reading the Power of Now give me clarity on what I wan to achieve in Samyama.
Earlier I wanted to break free of my limitation.
Now I realised my mind perceived limitation will always be there. It is when I am conscious that I m not led by d limitation.
So, now I jus wan to be as conscious as long as possible. Moment to moment.
I used to be on self-control mode and now I aim for self-mastery mode.
Jus now when doing shakti, tot of rental space reduction comes in furiously during kapala bhakti. I couldn't stop it. I cried out to Sadhguru. I told him that I am unable to stop my mind from churning. Help me. I cried and cried. Then stop, tots gone and I start to laugh and laugh.
I then tot is ok for d wild churning, at least I am now committed to be in the Now.
Amen.
I know for sure Father is always wit me. The New Earth and the Power of Now is so timely. Jus d right mode I need for Samyama.
I am for balancing path. I wan to enjoy my senses. In order to do that I must also stay conscious. That is d tool to balance it.

Sadhguru's msg
Peeling ur own hide
Sure not an easy ride
Piece by piece if u tear
You will be unable to bear
Let this me get beneath ur hide
In one piece, it will fall by the side
Fall in step with my stride
For sure it will be an easy ride

I jus cried and cried cos d poem resonate with me. For years, I was opening up doors after doors, uncovering my unconsciousness. Doing away wit my pride, learnt lot of humility. Before I reached Isha, I was at my ends, never ending doors. It is too much for me to bear. I can only open so many doors on my own.
Sadhguru is saying let me ride on him. He will help me to peel all straight off.
Yeap, that's what he will do in Samyama.
Amen.

Father, it really has been a long time. I felt at ease. I felt safe. I felt sure.
Coincidentally I just ended d period of uncertainty in Bhagavad Gita yday nite and this mornin I hav so much laughter n I can't wake up as I was deep in. Did an extra 15 min.

Bhagavad Gita
One ought not be a hypocrite in anything. There should be a connection of equality between one's life and the expression of one's thoughts.
He who cannot stand firm in righteous behavior before a test of the Almighty loses the right to speak as a wise man.
The test of man's wisdom is his equanimity. Little stones that are pelted into the lake of consciousness should not throw the whole lake into commotion.

Soul - tot of PA and even a friend who claimed that their spirituality is at advance level, but still under heavy ego influence. Mmm, what abt me?

Bhagavad Gita
The moral here is that one must relinquish the mental state of playing the roles of Jekyll and Hyde, of talking like the wise and acting like the ignorant.
This duality must be avoided by acting wisely as well as speaking like the wise. The illumined devotee synchronises his actions with his utterances and follows the good advice he may often give to others.

Soul - I do unless m lost in my tot.
Tot of my mind playing politics until I now lost trust in it.

Bhagavad Gita
To forsake the ignorant double life, the devotee should not be stirred by the restless changes of life nor fearful of the momentary calmness of so-called death (suspension of physical activity)
The wise do not indulge in grief for things that are inevitably changeable and evanescent.
The distressful changes in life and death seem real because of man's sense of possession -"my body, my family, my acquirement"

Soul - I m definitely stirred. I recalled I decided I stopped wanting challenges to show m good and justify my existence. When I m in calm mode, I will be fearful, but now I can tell myself to savour and prolong it and need not worried that I am useless and will be thrown out. Though now less cos RA will remind me to be balanced.
Mmm, don't take things personally and that help to release thing.

Bhagavad Gita
The dance of life and the danse macabre must be unchangingly, immovably, unswervingly perceived from the safe anchorage of soul consciousness.
Thru yoga concentration, u can master the restlessness that is synonymous with mortal life, and experience consciously the complete calmness or silence, accompanying freedom from identification with the body.
When the devotee reaches this immutable state of perfection, he witnesses all the changes of life and death (thoughts and emotions) without being moved by them.
The state of constant calmness (neutralisation of restless tots) is attained by the continuous practice of meditation.
Those who look at the surface of the sea must behold the birth and death of the waves. But those who seeks the depth of the ocean behold one indivisible mass of water.
Forget the past, for it is gone from your domain!
Forget the future, for it is beyond your reach!
Control the present!
Live supremely well now!
It will whitewash the dark past and compel the future to be bright. This is the way of the wise.

Soul
Father, same msg as the Power of Now. To use rootedness in Being so to avoid reacting to the minds and its wheeling thoughts.
The msg is to be in the Now.
Father, U r great. Thanks for loving me, guiding me.
Amen.