Joy leads to loosening of self

May 16

Father, did my practice today. Suria was quite fine. Little tots during Shakti and Shambavi. Since I didn't doze after hata, I finished by 6.35 am. I take the extra time to sleep till 7 am. I had a dream on SS. I guess it is talking about ending.

The Reporting Temp didn't turn up. We given him chances and trusted him. But in the end he failed too. I tot of the con man, I too give him chances. Father, looks like for some people, words cannot be trusted. Well, just move on. I no longer take it as personally as before.

At first, my fear mind was triggered and I wanted to ask V to do the reporting. But I hold myself back. The recon is also important. MS reports is underway, just HP not done and besides it is ending. So, let it be.

On Z, I am getting more secure. We r intact now. The more I know him, I realised he is a creature of comfort. When he found something he likes, he stick to it. He doesn't like changes, uncertainty and etc. He likes to repeat that I have becomes endeared to him. He likes that. I was even able to tell him that I m giving him one inch, so don't push for one feet. The SN Leo in him is really showing. And I have Venus in Leo. No wonder we are matched to each other.

Sadhguru
When u become ecstatic, on one level what is happening is that what was an integrate structure has become loose. It become malleable and u can re-shape it. People who are joyful are flexible. People who are unhappy are absolutely rigid. When they are happy, they are flexible.
When they become utterly blissful, they are malleable. When they have become like that, u can just make them into a ball of mud and reshape them whichever u want.

That is why we talk about bliss. We r not some kind of addicts looking for bliss. We r talking about bliss because that is a state where a human being becomes malleable.

Spiritual process means that in some way u have liberated urself from the bubble, that ur individuality is no more a demarcated area. Once u r not within the demarcated area, on one level, we can say u r free. On another level, it is also a tremendous freedom to create anything that u want, because the very fundamentals of life are in ur hand. U can make anything that u want around u or within u or anywhere in the world. Suddenly there is no limitation of space and time.
One can work and do things, irrespective of where one is. If this capability has to come, the first and foremost thing is to get into ecstatic states - absolutely mindless ecstasy.

Soul
I used to think my ecstasy is useless. Just being happy without any outcome. Now I know there is a purpose to the bliss.


Soul
No wonder I can now bend my head to ground and do plough back effortlessly

Father, I am losing my old personality of taking things personally.

Sadhguru
Witness ur body, witness ur mind. This witnessing is to take the experience of life beyond ur personality, to see that personality is something that u created. Once u r aware that u have created it, u can create it whichever way u want.