Control results in stress

May 18

Father, alas the flower essence is workin. Didn't realise I was in undergoing internal stress. I knew I was not as connected to the Source for the last 2 weeks but didn't realise it was becos I was too much in the mind. Stressful that I can't make it for my Destiny.
I will now admit to I am a worrier

Osho
1. The Issue - Stress
The essential man comes to know, to feel, "I am not separate from the whole, and there is no need to seek and search for any destiny on my own. Things are happening of their own accord.
The accidental man is a doer, in anxiety, tension and stress.
We create the stress ourselves, with the idea that without us, nothing will happen, especially in the way we want it to!

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see - Success.
One moment, you are the wave, another moment, you are the hollow wake that follows. Enjoy both - don't get addicted to one. It is not possible to be always in the peak. Nobody can exist continuously in an excitement.
Don't be tempted to try to hold on to this abundant moment.
The greatest wisdom to keep in mind with all the phenomena in the parade of your life, whether they be valleys or peaks, is that "this too will pass. "

Soul
Father, this down is not really down, but becos I have such a high peak, a month ago, I tot m going down. I have some expectation that I be transformed but nothing happen.

3. External Influence - The Miser.
The moment u start clingly to things, u have missed the target. Becos things are not the target, you, ur innermost being, is the target, an open being, available to million of things.
Whatever u r holding on to, remember that u can't take it with u. Loosen ur grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.

4. What is needed for resolution?
The Source
Zen asks u to come out of the head and go to the basic source. If all the energy is used in the head, u will never become aware of ur eternity....You will never know as an experience what it is to be one with the whole.
Zazen means sitting at the very source, not moving anywhere, a tremendous force arises, a transformation of energy into light and love, into greater life, into compassion, into creativity.
Learn how to be at the Source. Then the Source will decide where ur potential is. You can relax and let it take u to ur vrry potential.

Soul
How? Only thing is to continue with my meditation.

5. Resolution - Celebration
Life is a moment to celebrate, to enjoy. Make it fun, a celebration and then u will enter the temple.
Your cleverness is ur disease. Don't be too wise. Always remember to stop; don't go to the extreme. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good and the right combination makes u a buddha.
Celebration never need to depend on outside circumstances. True celebration arises from a joy that is first experienced deep within, and spills over into an overflow of song and dance and laughter, and yes, even tears of gratitude.

Soul
I have experienced and continue to experience during meditation. Aiyah, jus savour lah my 4 days week. It jus started 1 month and already I wan to see something else and here I didn't do anything to get something else and I didn't wan to do anyway.
So, give myself time off for 2010. Jus savour this time off. Very few people can afford to have.

(June 4 - yday, while driving to meet my friends for dinner..suddenly felt happy and laughed uncontrollably..its meditation by itself)