Learning to accept endings

Apr 6 eve

Was crying during pooja. Cried cos ending of volunteering. I truly can't go back to local Isha hands on volunteering. Even after a long rest I still can't. What's left for me.
A tot came ;
New beginnings are always disguised as painful endings, Lao Tzu

It helps to comfort me. Went in deep into meditative zone.

Same happen during Linga chanting. Able to chant 3 times. This time chanting slowly, savouring it. Again a reminder of new beginning

Shoonya went in deep.

Then did a long cat stretch. Good to release tension from shoulder and top back. Getting back to the corrected posture.

Alas now understand internal influence last week internal influence
Shoonya
Being "in the gap" can be disorienting and even scary. Nothing to hold on to, no sense of direction, not even a hint of what choices and possibilities might lie ahead. But it was just this state of pure potential that existed before the universe was created. 

All you can do now is to relax into this no-thingness...fall into this silence between the words...watch this gap between the outgoing and incoming breath. And treasure each empty moment of the experience. Something sacred is about to be born.

After the release of Burden; of letting go of volunteering. That's ending. I don't know of any beginning. Now emptiness.