North Node in Taurus - true self-reliance

May 4
Woke up before 7 am but slept back and woke up again at 7.30 am alarm.
I snuggled bit and woke up at 7.50 am.
My right feet is swelling..partly due to RA and also too much walking last week.
Both my hands are swelling bit..wondering if I should have taken the steroid..but I ignored it..
Not sure if can do hata yoga..

I did Bhuta Shuddi in correct Arashidharsana posture. But was not focused, so miss out the fire part..had to go back. I did cat stretch..my wrist was hurting..but once I got into the motion..i am able to hold..
I did yogaasanas.. and on the standing posture..I was singing.
Overall quite good and I was even able to hold for 45 seconds despite my apprehension.
this time feeling bit more awareness on the 61 points awareness meditation.
Breathing was quite okay..
Shakti was good..i did a slow Kapala and counted to 100. Now just focused on slow.
towards the end..even at the last breathing. I know I went in deep cos the mind was silent...
Shambavi was quite okay..despite doing a short Surya Kriya.. towards the end bit of singing and silence..and then unexpectedly animal sounds arise...

Spoke to P. It was an overwhelming breakthrough volunteering for her.
I am truly happy for them.
Everyone of us having our breakthrough.
Just now as I was saying that I am not sure of the power of BSP cos I had mine one month after my IE. She said that is not a personal BSP whereas now they are having a volunteer BSP experiences. Eventhough they didn't talk to each other nor know each other, they felt like a family.
For a moment, I feel bit regretful for not having the experience. But I knew it is not for me.
I am happy just being able to promote and share Isha and yet keeping to my own sadhana.
For me, my shrine and sadhana is important to me.
Yes, mine is not the world experience....but its okay we are all different.

Just now when I shared with L my sadhana experiences, she said she is worried for me.
I told her I am not worried now after my conversation with S.
I told her that my Samyama now happening during Sannidhi pooja.
Something opens up the day I decided not to go to BSP volunteering.
Also supported with the sitting in muladhara and also Vijji.


http://www.the-soulmate-site.com/north-node-in-taurus.html
Establish your values. Create security. Wear green (your soul colour)
A fully expressed North Node in Taurus is sensual, and loves the comforts of life, scents and touch. It's practically creative, often the singer, photographer, gardener, farmer, architect, and builds upon a deep inner foundation. It's also great at making (and managing) money, growing its net worth through its own efforts.

North node in Taurus is about achieving true self-reliance. In this lifetime, it is imperative that you not get enmeshed in the ways of others. In fact, I'd even say: put your values before another's.
With a Taurus soul mission, having a strong sense of what's important to YOU is the key to finding your soulmate. The more serenity you discover within yourself, the more nurturing and peaceful your relationship will be.

Strive for internal peace, rather than focusing on achieving peace and balance in your relationships. This will actually improve your relationships and bring you enormous fulfillment and satisfaction.
The house where your North Node in Taurus soul mission expresses itself, is the area of life where new inner trust and security replaces past struggles.

Soul
Amen.

Have truly formed the Interaction Team.
Got enthusiatic members.
Truly now settling down my eleventh house's conflict. I found my place within the volunteering in local Isha.

Gargothill

North Node in the Eleventh house                 
The Unfolding of Your Destiny Is Focused on Group Identity
                                                
            The North Node in the Eleventh Housee indicates that it may be your destiny to develop your sense of group identity, particularly in terms of developing social responsibility.  You must become better integrated into the larger social unit and establish your individual identity within the group in a healthy and balanced manner.  To this end, your  destiny has been framed to present appropriate learning opportunities.
You are also likely to be confronted with contradictory drives for commitment to a group or society, on the one hand, and developing your own individual identity, on the other hand.  Part of your destiny lesson, then, may be to resolve the apparent paradoxes between group-identity and self-identity.