Mercury in 2nd house

May 2 aft

Mercury in Cancer in 2nd house

Mercury in the Second House
 Your Mental and Communication Functions are Focused on Your Values and Resources
Transcendent Potential
            You can realize the transcendent potential of Mercury in the Second House when you critically examine and analyze the value system which forms the basis for your mental involvement in matters of gain and loss.  You then begin to question the basic premises of the values which have been handed to you.  Thinking deeply and rationally about your values, you conclude that life is more than a race to acquire the most possessions and happiness is more than mere physical comfort.  You then work out your own system of values, using your intellect to free yourself from your prior conditioning and preconceptions and finding for yourself those values that are real and true.  You do not abandon the need to apply yourself mentally to satisfy your material wants and needs, but you realize that this is not the end all and be all of life.

Soul
Leaving a country famous for shopping. I looked around all the people. So glad I know there is much more to life. Buying an upgraded version of clothing and etc no longer matters.

 “Insecurity

You may become inwardly insecure when you see your mental abilities as what must bring you success at acquiring material possessions and living in material affluence. That part of your self-worth that you attach to your mental and communicating proficiencies is, then, vulnerable to you achieving material “success” in life. You may conceive that the sole value of your intellect is in playing the game of material acquisition. You dismiss thinking for its own sake as something frivolous. If you are not successful materially, then you may disparage your intellect and turn away from it. This not only lowers your self-esteem, it also practically guarantees your failure in the material world. You may compensate by redefining your concept of material success by valuing those things that are not rewards for a keen intellect. You may also fear the burden of pursuing material success, due to your inner insecurities. This, also, may prompt you to reject your intellect and to appear dull and uncommunicative to others.”

Excerpt From: Gargatholil. “Depth Astrology: An Astrological Handbook - Volumes 1-4 (Introduction, Planets in Signs, Planets in Houses, Planets in Aspect).” iBooks.

Soul
The part of burden of pursuing material success..is quite true.
Thats my fear of Z.
But I now know I can pursued it without being a burden.
I can give myself what I want.. I need not sell myself short.