North Node in Taurus - I really do have

Apr 21 aft 1
Just read this and suddenly occured to me..how it arise in my life.

http://www.the-soulmate-site.com/north-node.html

Emotional responses, attitudes and energy to adopt

♉ Taurus “I have”

Soul
Yes..I tot I don't have financial reserve..but I have..
I tot I don't have emotional security..but I have..
I tot that I don't have love..but I have..


Your North Node house
Life issues to explore. Note! You must have your birth time for
these to be accurate.
Eleventh house: “Receiving love through friendships, and like-minded groups”

My card last week..not getting clearer
3. External influence that you are aware
Fighting
We think that if we frighten people away, we can avoid being hurt even more. In fact, just the opposite is the case. By covering our wounds with armor we are preventing them from being healed. By lashing out at others we keep ourselves from getting the love and nourishment we need. 

If this description seems to fit you, it's time to stop fighting. There is so much love available to you if you just let it in. Start by forgiving yourself: you're worth it.

Soul
Yes...thats why finally got back to local Isha.
My path in 11th house..
Eventhough I m not into hands on volunteering and have pulled out..the core team wants me back.
They are confident that I can easily set a new team.
While I m not into hands on stuff..I am continuously promoting Isha Kriya to corporate and Isha hata yoga to friends and colleagues
So when teacher asked me last week to lead the Interaction team i was okay `to do so.
When I did the recruitment on Sathsang, V said happily that Joy is back.
Guess, I just need to find my niche in Local Isha..
Something that makes me happy and willing and something that can help local Isha.

North node in 11th house

North Node in the Eleventh house  -- Gargatholil       
The Unfolding of Your Destiny Is Focused on Group Identity
                                                
            The North Node in the Eleventh Housee indicates that it may be your destiny to develop your sense of group identity, particularly in terms of developing social responsibility.  You must become better integrated into the larger social unit and establish your individual identity within the group in a healthy and balanced manner.  To this end, your destiny has been framed to present appropriate learning opportunities.
            It may be difficult for you to gain affinity with a group or come to terms with the need for social responsibility, but it is unlikely that you can avoid these issues.  The challenges facing you may involve finding your place within a group, coming to terms with your role in society, being concerned for the future or developing a concern for the well-being of humanity. It is likely that, in the past (including your past life development), you have not paid sufficient attention to being involved in group settings and/or to your responsibilities to society and humanity. You are now called upon to undertake these obligations in your present life.
            You may have an overwhelming desire to be a part of some group or to participate in some cause devoted to social uplift.  However, because you may be deficient in karmic or sanskaric (past life) experiences in such Eleventh House matters, you may find group interaction or social participation to be difficult, unfamiliar and fraught with pitfalls.  If you are insecure, you may choose to avoid this area of life.  However, it is more likely that you will respond to this challenge, which you feel destined to meet.
            At least initially in life, you may have a tendency to avoid groups and/or matters of social responsibility, as you hesitate to confront your destiny lesson.  Ultimately, if you are to be successful in actualizing your life's potential, you must come to terms with your need for group and social involvement.  The unfolding of your destiny is most likely to occur within the context of group life or social involvement.  Joining a particular group, organization or cause may seem to have a certain fated quality.
            You are also likely to be confronted with contradictory drives for commitment to a group or society, on the one hand, and developing your own individual identity, on the other hand.  Part of your destiny lesson, then, may be to resolve the apparent paradoxes between group-identity and self-identity.

Soul
This is so true...
North node in Taurus and North Node in 11th house do have contradictory values..
Alas..I think I  may have finally come in..


Transcendent Potential
            You can realize the transcendent potential of the North Node in the Eleventh House when you  begin to be motivated by a desire to improve the condition of humanity.  You then work diligently to bring about these results.  You progress beyond identification with any single group or organization and you consider yourself to be a citizen of the world, a member of the class "Humanity."
            Nevertheless, if you are honest with yourself, you may find yourself realizing that you are inadequate to the task improving general human welfare.  At most, you can make an incremental difference, and you are not without faults and short-comings.  You conclude that, in order to assist humanity, you must first tend to your own improvement.  Then, you can be an example to others.
            Consequently, you learn to serve others and work for the betterment of humanity with humility and without any involvement of your ego.  While attending to the physical, social and economic needs of those less fortunate, you realize that the greatest betterment is the betterment of humanity's spiritual welfare.  Again, you conclude that the most effective way to accomplish this is by example.

Soul
Exactly.
now I see how I can play the role.
This time won't see me as the one..this one is team effort.
I am even asking input from teacher so I stay within my parameter.
My commitment is to keep Isha flame alive in me and support others..thats all.
I have kept Isha flame alive in me for the past 6 plus years and hence can give others some pointers.


Insecurity
            If you are inwardly insecure, you will be afraid to give up your own identity.  Thus, you avoid group involvement, because this requires individual commitment and carries a risk that you may be criticized by the group.  You may also be expected by the group to sacrifice your selfish interests.
            If you cannot resist the pull of destiny, you will recast your involvement in a group so as to preserve your ego's supremacy.  You may seek a leadership position in the group or otherwise so strongly identify with the group that the group becomes an alter-ego for you. You, then, are free to imagine that you are part of--essential to--a grand destiny to actualized yourself through the group.
           
Soul
yes..true..I was the leader..but I know it can't be me..
and the breaking point was when L attack me verbally vis venomous messages. So attacking that I have to blocked her from my phone.

Now I am back in..but doing what I like..and no longer the lead.
I consciously avoid any core team meeting.