Vijii with me, my shrine is now complete.

Apr 20

Woke up before 6 am, cos no alarm.
Anyway, just wanted a break.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by corrected Shambavi with proper cat stretch and sitting on muladhara. Shoulder is much better after sathsang yesterday.
Not sure why but after the Self creation, today cat stretch I felt even lighter...as if weight lifted off me.
Nice..sweet feeling as if I m back at vijii samadhi place.
After sadhana, the first thing I saw was Vijii face looking lovingly at me. So nice.
My little ashram is complete with Vijii.

Yesterday sathsang was quite awesome.
Manage to recruit a few meditators for my new team.
I cried when I received Vijii pix from my friend K. Now my shrine is complete.
So glad that at this time I can't go ashram, ashram comes to me.
And with the completion of my shrine..next is the proper sadhana room.
I think with a proper sadhana room, the energy space will be even greater.

Went to hospital for blood test for tomorrow RA medical check up.
Suddenly tot of me being a sensitive person..and so easily hurt..or rather so easily perceive people's expression or response or non-response as an acceptance of me.
I now admit I am sensitive..now the next thing is to see how not to see things so negatively..thats my Saturn in Seven of Clubs.
Phone been out since Saturday...will now await my brother's response.

This week Osho tarot's card
 Healing
You carry your wound. With the ego, your whole being is a wound. And you carry it around. Nobody is interested in hurting you, nobody is positively waiting to hurt you; everybody is engaged in safeguarding his own wound. Who has got the energy? But still it happens, because you are so ready to be wounded, so ready, just waiting on the brink for anything. 

You cannot touch a man of Tao. Why? - because there is no one to be touched. There is no wound. He is healthy, healed, whole. This word whole is beautiful. The word heal comes from the whole, and the word holy also comes from the whole. He is whole, healed, holy. 

Be aware of your wound. Don't help it to grow, let it be healed; and it will be healed only when you move to the roots. The less the head, the more the wound will heal; with no head there is no wound. Live a headless life. Move as a total being, and accept things. 

Just for twenty-four hours, try it - total acceptance, whatsoever happens. Someone insults you, accept it; don't react, and see what happens. Suddenly you will feel an energy flowing in you that you have not felt before.

Soul
Mmm thats why L's venomous attack affect me so much.
Others would have said something wrong with L, but instead I see L's perception could be true..and so I shrunk back into my shell..and alas backed out of being the cheerful sharing self in Isha.