North Node in Taurus - self discovery on materials things

Mar 27 eve 5
North Node in Taurus — South Node in Scorpio
http://www.truenode.org/north-node-signs/north-node-in-taurus-south-node-in-scorpio/

With the north node in taurus, it is usually said the individual will enjoy the arts and find great pleasure in love.  It can also indicate pessimism and hesitation, which should be overcome.

The Dragon’s Tail in Scorpio connotes an individual who seeks shortcuts to success and a lack of courage.
In the past, as the north node in taurus, you lived through the hell of death and rebirth.  You had powerful sexual urges that led to questionable relationships or practiced witchcraft. 

Often, there is a spillover effect into the current lifetime.  You may find that each day brings a different crisis.  Self-discovery is called for in the north node in taurus.  It will lead you to develop new values and create the place of inner peace which you so desperately desire.

From your past life experiences, you find it difficult to believe that others are not out to take advantage of you or at least have an agenda.  If you are not spiritually developed, you may still seek to revenge yourself for various real or imagined wrongs.  You do this my creating scenarios that destroy your relationships, the demise of which you blame on the helpless victims of your manipulation.

You have very intense feelings which, if not channeled constructively, can lead to outbursts.  The north node in taurus wants stability, but unconsciously act to create chaos because it is a familiar feeling for you.

You are in control of your life, but you may not be conscious of it.  As you mature, you will find a way to deal with the emotional seas inside you and take responsibility for creating the life you want.

You may have a hang up about having to start at the bottom of a profession, resent having to prove your worth, be contemptuous of money, sport a “give me” attitude, or feel that you can only prosper by taking from others.  Time and again you come up short and blame it on others.  Some individuals with this placement invest all their energy in one resource, usually intangible.  This is a risky life strategy.  You want the good things in life and can be jealous of those who have nice possessions.  You are here to learn the value of material things.

Save some of your energy for yourself: do not deplete your health, money, physical or sexual energy.  Keep always a little for the proverbial rainy day.  This is how you build your own resources.  Only when you take the time to invest in yourself will you finally create the stability you seek.

Take the habit of husbanding your resources.  Replenish depleted accounts.  Avoid waste. Budget wisely and you will find a greater happiness than you have ever known.

You are here to transcend base urges:  lust becomes love, continual rebirth becomes peace, and jealousy of others’ possessions becomes resourcefulness.   Gardening, cooking, music appreciation, sewing, painting, and a hobby of valuable collectibles are all recommended for individuals with north node in taurus.  Take an interest in one or some of these.  It may help your soul on its journey.


Soul
No wonder I met North Node in Aquarius/South Node in Leo..they truly on materials.
Both my local boss and Z.
With Z, I learned to buy my big car, renovated my room and bathroom.
Now on my own, buying a condo and getting ID to renovate it and creating my own Sadhana room..thats my most precious..
of course..having my own coffee machine...
truly looking forward to another new space in my life..