Rheumatoid Arthritis acting up

Apr 21

Woke up at alarm at 3.35 am but feel tired. So decided to sleep back. Woke up later at 4.50 am. Body feels okay. Guess was tired at office. Did the tough staff appraisal for L in a compassionate way. Hope she understand and will work for it.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by preparatory for Surya Kriya. Did a long cat stretch..a good one.
Still not able to do lie down posture after the first mountain pose. Can only do in second mountain pose.
Must remind myself not to do any pose that aggravate my elbow.
61 point awareness meditation was okay.
Did a quick breathing meditation.

Shakti was not so good cos my right foot feeling bit painful. Did rest a few times. Also trying to focus on the one and half second count between Kapala Bhakti. Teacher said focus on getting the one and half second count right before making it intense..so back to square one.
Also I realise the main thing is not 'resting' It is okay to rest so as to ensure proper 'steps.

Shambavi was very good with the corrected cat stretch and sitting on muladhara...today another animal sounds..

Just got back from hospital. As I suspected blood result won't be good since I been on too busy mode for the past one month.
It seems something wrong with my liver. May be due to prolonged medication of Arava.
Wil have to go back for another blood test.
Been asked to do alternate on Arava and to take some steroid to avoid flare up.
cholestrol is 4.5 vs two years ago at 6 plus..and yet doc said not good as it should be 2.5.

Feeling bit down..but did Shoonya with my shrine..feeling better now.
I intepret this another sign that its good I didn't go for BSP volunteering.

Also I truly can't take any more hectic corporate life style.

On brother, after yesterday decision of accepting he will be like that.
And my main focus is that mom is happy. No more attacking tots nor dilemma on him.
I have already asked and he has given his non-response.

Just now chatted bit with Z's wife.
Ordinarily we may have been able to click..as she is Clubs.
I noticed I tend to click well with Clubs.
Eventhough her Destiny is Seven of Clubs, which is my Saturn.
Same as my ex-staff K but I got on very well with him.