South Node in Scorpio - difficulty in self expression

May 5 aft 2
Gargothill
“South Node in Scorpio

Predisposition toward Emotional Intensity and Intimacy

With a Scorpio South Node, you are predisposed to seek intimacy. You also may be predisposed toward emotional intensity. It is likely that your background, conditioning and past experience have ingrained in you certain Scorpio-associated traits. You are likely to develop your innate talents and resources with passion and fervor, although this may be done privately or even secretly. You are likely to have talents that are intuitive and/or that involve the exercise of power and control. The nature of these talents and resources is often indicated by the South Node’s house placement. You may be quite insightful regarding your talents and resources and may wish to use them in order to gain better control of your life. This may involve controlling or managing others. You may also have an innate attraction for the occult or a deep attraction toward the transformative.

Soul
yes..my dream is self mastery..not controlling others now..but managing myself..
yes..there is inherent on spiritual matters and astrology...

South node in Scorpio
Any negative associations with past issues or behavior patterns (generally symbolized by the conjunction of a planet with the South Node) are likely to involve issues of power, sexuality, emotional passion, secrecy or ruthlessness. You may have difficulty expressing intimacy or revealing your true self. It may be valuable for you to develop more trust in others and also to not be so intense.

Soul
Started with power at work.
Then sexuality
And then later emotional passion.
Difficulty in expressing my true self..
To express when I feel instead to bottle up and become so intense.

South Node in Scorpio
Patiently awaiting your destiny may conflict with your sense of urgency or your natural desire to control your environment. To practically seek out your destiny or to receive it calmly, you may have to tone down the level of your emotional intensity. Your innate Scorpio qualities may prove, however, in motivating you to overcome some of your Taurus complacency and willingness to accept the ordinary and mediocre as you pursue your destiny

Soul
Not the patient one..but guess good to complement Taurus.
Yes..emotional intensity..now giving it to the Shrine..

Transendence
“Your affinity for what is deep and real brings you, at the transcendent level, to your inner depths where the Real awaits you. Within you lies an intense longing to merge with your Source and Origin, a longing that has been implanted in you long ago and which is your birthright.
You have utilized your innate emotional intensity to manifest this longing as devotion and your penchant for privacy has served you well in giving you the time and space in which to undergo the inner purification and concentration that has taken you on your inner journey.”

Soul
Yes, my shrine..emotional intensity now become devotion.
Yes..my aloneness path....
No wonder..its like coming home..when I first saw the Sannidhi.
No wonder..able to relate to Vijii..even without knowing her or what she is...even before seeing her..