Chronic pain by Jeff Foster

Apr 28 eve

https://www.facebook.com/LifeWithoutACentre/posts/749484871815790

"Why is the pain still here? After all I've done, with all I know...". I've heard this kind of thing from so many people all over the world. We've tried everything, been to every healer, had every kind of spiritual insight and experience, and yet we are not 'over' our pain yet. It's 'still here'. We can end up feeling so disappointed. Like we are failures, far from healing. Like we are 'doing something wrong'.

But healing is never far away. I invited the woman to allow herself to feel the pain in her neck and shoulders more deeply. To be present with the raw sensations there. To breathe into them. To be curious. To allow them to intensify if they wanted to. To allow them to move, to break up, to flutter, to pulsate, to burn. But to stay present, and curious; to allow, to trust, to breathe.

Suddenly a great terror welled up in her body. An old fear of becoming overwhelmed, of dying, of going mad, of breaking apart. "Breathe into this," I reminded her. Her entire body started to shake, convulse. "Breathe. Trust. I'm here with you...". This went on for a couple of minutes. I stayed close. Then it stopped as quickly as it had begun. She opened her eyes. She started to laugh, to cry with relief. "Wow," she said. "Just... wow". There were no words. The pain in her neck and shoulders was gone. Her whole body felt rested, relaxed, grounded. She was welling up with love and gratitude.

Instead of trying to 'heal' or 'get rid of' her pain (she had tried so hard over the years!), she finally was able to meet it instead, make a home for it, allow it. Her pain had become bound up with emotion - fear, rage, and underneath, great sorrow, even despair. These emotions had been held tightly in her body since she was a little one, when it wasn't safe to allow herself to feel what she felt. So energy had got stuck in her shoulders. Feeling into the 'pain' was the invitation for these old energies to finally begin to move in her. Her body was literally shaking out old bound-up energy, in the safety of the present moment, in the safety of our relational field.

She was learning to trust herself again. Trust her body. Trust the power of presence. Trust someone else to stay close with her in the fire of her experience. Even trust the pain itself, see the intelligence in it. In a space of safety, and presence, and care, and love, she was able to begin to bear the unbearable, so the unbearable was not unbearable any longer. This is how healing happens - through love, through presence, through the courage to come closer.
- Jeff Foster

Soul
thats my question too..why the RA pain still there..
 What else can I do..
 Mmm..meeting the pain..

But recently when in pain..i began to talk to the area of pain during yogaasanas and cat stretch.
Even during 61 points awareness..I just said blood don't attack us. Just release..go with the flow..Be at ease..I do find the pain subside..
 
Today just sang guru pooja. Suddenly animal sound came out. Something pushing its way out. The writing above about energy being released seems to be happening now.
Suddenly all coming together.

I think me not going for the BSP volunteering has broken through my main compulsion. And hence with that lesiure breakfast habits also break...
And now becoming even more receptive.
Guru pooja and Sannidhi pooja is like being in Samyama program, all the animals in me coming out...
Hata Yoga is now being in deeper meditation..singing mode is out instead of just laughter mode.
Amen.