RA pain acting up, but yoga still on

Mar 31
Woke up 3.37 am with a painful left shoulder. Body is fresh but mind said snooze. Glad I sat with the shrine yesterday for 5 minutes. Yes, shrine needs a room on its own to maintain sanctity
 I just lie down a bit and went to bathroom. Sat at the toilet bowl feeling bit sorry for myself. Then got up and shower.

Did Bhuta Shuddhi followed by slow cat stretch. It was good can feel the stretch on the upper shoulder like it used to be. So the position of the knee has to be slightly nearer.
Angamardhana was good. I wasn't sweating much cos don't feel so tired. Hero posture was a bit tight on the left knee. Sat long time in Dhynna

Did preparatory for Surya Kriya but can't do. My left shoulder too painful for me to do the lying down posture. So I went straight to 61 points awareness meditation, not great.
Did the breathing meditation. In the first 5 min couldn't get into awareness mode and then I went into awareness. It was so lovely. Just feeling at ease, nowhere to go. Just feeling good. Couldn't do longer as time is running out since I spent too long on Dhynna after  Angamardhana
Shakti was good. Was focused on slow Kapala Bhakti for first and second cycle. In third cycle, lost in the beginning. In the end I was singing and dancing.
Shambavi was nice. Went in deep. Head shaking non stop towards the end.

Having negative tots on the purchase of house. Then I recalled my ex boss also had difficulty in the purchase of house, finally settled after a long time of nego. Spoke to my lawyer, she said its be fine. And if the house is mine, will be mine. Another msg of going with the flow.
I think my case also aggravated by the fact that loan agreement is signed. I wonder what happen in my previous second purchase of condo.  That one I didn't follow up.
The sales agent said agreement is signed and asked me not to worry. So let the negative stop. That's my Seven of clubs.

The secrets of yoga
U can only be that which u already are - nothing else is possible. It is a given fact; it is a gift. So spirituality is not an attainment; rather, it is a recognition - remembrance. U have forgotten, that's all. ... You have misplaced it somewhere, that's all, but it is there all the same.

Soul
Got me thinking on breathing meditation or rather awareness meditation. Just watching myself is so difficult to get into the mode but once I m in so effortless. All my sadhana making me calm so I can be awareness