My destiny

Father, thank u for being with me. For sending yoga kriya to me.

This mornin woke up worried n mind was operating overtime on strategy. I jus let it be n d ending was great. I had a great calming time wit stomach sucked in. It wasn't me.

Father, yea I told my fellow kriya, there is no obvious sympthon like others. Perhaps I was already balanced per se. My sympthon is more subtle - catching mosquito, not irritable when losing money, not affected when request r denied, not so affected wit the current turmoil. Not so fearful if losing job or cut pay. Not so affected on no follow up on overseas posting job, as possible wit downturn, headcount will be most likely frozen, especially for new position

Alchemist
No matter what he does, every person on earth plays a central role in the history of the world. Normally he doesn't know it. Be aware of the place where you are brought to tears. That's where I am and that's where your treasure is.

Soul - I think this is equivalent to my experience that suffering is blessing. Is only when u perceive u r suffering, that tears will come. When tears come, means Heart has flowered. Where heart has flowered then we will find our destiny.

I have never cried so much in my life. Thru isha yoga, my heart has opened n now started to flower. The tears are more n d laughter is much deeper. As much as I can cry, is as much I will laugh. I have definitely expanded in this couple of months.

Alchemist
The boy arrived at the pyramid n couldn't find any treasure. Instead encounter bandits who robbed n beat him. As the bandit was leaving, he told the boy of his own recurrent dream of treasure in Spain but he wasn't so stupid to travel across desert to find it.

Soul - Sometimes we were guided to a place which we hope would give us something good or could finally realise our destiny, but when we reach n stayed there, our hope are shattered. But unknowingly, there are other blessings which we didn't wish for but is meant for us.
So if we didn't even try n went to d new place, we never would be even on our destiny path.
Me, when I joined d current company, I had hope of being part of mgm team n able to support ceo in all operation. When m here, my hope was shattered n I become miserable cos my main role was reporting and I had a ceo who had a bullying mode.
Then my colleague intro me to meditation n led me to an amazing path of yoga kriya.
I have shy away from meditation for many years believing that my mind was too active for meditation and I can't sit so long in one place. But in 2008, I finally realised that my mind is shitty and cannot be depended on and I need something to overcome its constant need to push me to excel. Then I tot of meditation n coincidentally yoga kriya came and is truly a blessing. It has calmed my mind somewhat n also led to better physical coordination. I think by calming d mind, it freed up space to allow physical coordination.


Evening
Did my meditation and was laughing for so long. Didn't expect it
I know now my destiny is being a Leader. That's is why I am being guided or attracted to a situation whereby I will have lead, involuntarily and when I didn’t do it, it is by ‘force’, like the situation now.

I used to resist leading at higher level and just want to maintain in the mid level but alas now I accept my destiny, being a leader. I am a Queen.

Alas I am no longer feeling guilty that I m always in such challenging situation. I didn't cause it. The challenging situations call to me cos I am a hidden Leader. A leader who was unwilling. Well, I accept my destiny.