The Witch of Portobello

The Witch of Portobello

All creative human being, to a greater or lesser extent, have experienced of being possessed by God. Suddenly, we feel that our whole life is justified, our sins forgiven, and that love is is still the strongest force, one that can transform us forever.
But at the same time, we feel afraid. Surrendering completely to love, be it human or divine, means giving up everything, including our own well-being or our ability to make decisions. It means loving in the deepest sense of the word.
The truth is that we don't want to be saved in the way God has chosen, we want to keep absolute control over our every step, to be fully conscious of our decisions, to be capable of choosing the object of our devotion.
Only very strong souls allow themselves to be swept along

Soul - very true. I have encountered a few such moment, but always I pulled back cos am still afraid to let go n be who God meant to be me. I know m definitely not strong soul yet :)
Only thing is at least I now accept m a leader, not sure in which role. So for now, just lead wherever I am.

The Witch of Portobello
If I don't feel life growing inside me, I will never be able to accept life outside me.

Soul
I equate this is as going internal, finding my Self, n letting it grow so that it can face and grow wit life outside.

The Witch
A saint is someone who lives his or her life with dignity. All we have to do is to understand that we are all here for a reason and to commit ourselves to that. Then we can laugh at our sufferings, large and small, and walk fearlessly, aware that each step has meaning. We can let ourselves be guided by the light emanating from the Vertes.

Soul
Remind me of my path; knowing that suffering (death of ego) is blessing. Hence I walk with more willingness and g reduced too.

The witch
I prefer to accept my loneliness. If I accept it, rather than fight against it, things might change.
I noticed that loneliness gets stronger when we try to face it down, but gets weaker when we simply ignore it.
Dance till exhausted n then fell into a state of grace, of profound ecstasy. I want the ecstasy to last throughout the day and for it to help me what I lack; the love of a man. I can see the heart of that man when I am dancing but not his face. I sense that he is close by, which is why I need to remain alert. I need the dance in the morning so that I can spend the rest of the day paying attention to everything that's going on around me.

Soul
Tot of me at the end of meditation, feeling blissful n at times singing; love me tender, love me true, love me evermore.
That the Love I have. When I do my meditation in the morning, it get me aligned n guide me throughout the day.

The Witch / The Teacher
Ecstasy – is to stand outside yourself.
During any dance to which we surrender with joy, the brain loses its controlling power and the heart takes ups the reins of the body. Only at that moment, does the Vertes appear. As long as we believe in it

Soul - I equate the dance to the Shiva dance we did during BSP. I also tot is like the meditation I do with joy on daily basis. Once I did the locking, my closed eyes would see a vortex a black thick circle n then slowly replaced by orange light, then a bliss settle over me.

The Witch
The rapid movement in dance allows me to get in touch with my Vertex. But now I am being forced to do the most difficult thing in the world - slowing down. Why is patience so important.

If your Soul could communicate with your brain, you would be able to change even more things.

The Witch/Calligrapher
There are 2 kinds of letter. The first is precise but lacks soul. In this case, although the calligrapher may have mastered the technique, he has focused solely on the craft, which is why it hasn't evolved, but become repetitive; he hasn't grown at all and one day he'll give up the practice of writing because he feels it is mere routine.

The second kind is done with great technique but with soul as well. For that to happen, the intention of the writer must be in harmony with the word.

Soul - Tot of me in meditation. I went in without any knowledge of possible outcome n was initiated unknowingly. However, I know Sadhguru is giving me an alternative - energy. So, I do it with abandon n the outcome is amazing.

The Witch/Calligrapher
You know the effort it took to sit in the correct position, to quieten your soul, keep your intentions clear and respect each letter of each word. Meanwhile keep practising. After a great deal of practise, we no longer think of all the necessary movements we must make; they become part of your existence.

Before reaching that stage, however, you must practise and repeat. And if that is not enough, you must practise and repeat so more.

Soul - same advice given by Sadhguru on yoga kriya. For the first 48 days, must do twice a day n thereafter once a day for 6 mths.
Honestly, I was consistent for 4 mths n of late after CNY has lagged but m back in force after listening to Marianne Williamson of getting ourself aligned instead of always asking for miracle of forgiveness. So, I continue in the morning n now in d evening, especially Friday, at times I don't do.

The Witch/Calligrapher.
Repetition - seems the same but it is always different. The moment will come when u no longer need to think about what you are doing. You become the letter, the ink, the paper, the world

Soul - mmm, definitely not there yet but each meditation experience is unique n seems is what required for the day.

The Witch/Teacher
We are surrounded by Universal Desire. It is not happiness; its desire. And desires are never satisfied, because once they are, they cease to be desires.
You are alive. This moment is the only point in your universe. Let go of the idea that the path will lead you to your goal.
The truth is that with each step we take, we arrive.
I have arrived (repeat every morning)
That way you will find it much easier to stay in touch with each second of your day

Soul - that's a good idea. A big part of me still thinking of the future. Just look at now at my current company is what I have.

The Witch/Teacher
Faith is not desire.
Faith is Will.
Desires are things that need to be satisfied whereas Will is a force
Will changes the space around us, as you did with your work.
But for that you also need Desire.

Instead of trying to prove that you are better than you think, just laugh. Laugh at ur worries and insecurities. View your anxieties with humour. It will be difficult at first, but gradually get used to it.

Soul - I told myself not take my issues so seriously. Don't think everything is personal.