Path to my Destiny

Father, thank you for bringing me isha.

Yesterday evening meditation, I cried a bit, and tot of why my long time friend recommended me to the current company and led me to this suffering, but then of course if I don't come, I won't find kriya and if I don't find, forever holding back my swan n fighting over my destiny.

Osho reading for the week
Flowering
The sleeves of her garment contain an abundance of seeds and as the wind blows, the seeds will be scattered where they may. The Queen of Rainbows is not concerned where they land, she is just spreading them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love.

Soul - yea, have finally started d blog, a platform of expression. Have always been amazed by d wonders of God n been wanting to share. So, the blog is a good platform. Someday, someone who needed the seeds will be guided to the bloga. For now, my role is spreading and for me is a release. So, this is a good deal for both of us.

Transformation
It comes like death in its own time. And like death, it takes you from one dimension into another.

Soul - Alas I am finally free of d guilt of why I attracted challenging situation and also if I had been d cause. The truth is I am a leader n my destiny is to be in places where leadership is required. All d while there has been an internal fight between d eagle n swan n hence d conflicts.

Also my VFM mode, is good but need to be applied selectively instead on auto mode.

Before transformation, there is a deep let go, let be and just accept what is. Before transformation, pain, sorrow or difficulty will be there.

Eagle - leader
Swan - food n time off for relaxation.
All d while, eagle took charge n not aware that swan's needs are not met. For swan, since needs are not meant, she sits there festering victim mode.

The truth is a leader in a good environment will have both leadership n time off.
I know m a leader n now to find d red strategy.

Thunderbolt
The card show earthquakes n woman has to leaped n her sense of security is being challenged n hence she is feeling shaky

After the fire, the earth is replenished, after the storm, the air is clear. Try to watch the destruction with detachment, almost as if it were happening to somebody else. Say YES to the process by meeting it halfway

Soul - when I first read d card on Monday, I jus saw the earthquake. Was thinking of overall recession n tot of a small client. So, knew I was bit shaky but comfort myself cause I be last to go.
Little did I know that our biggest client wanting to cut a huge fee. I got the info on Wed. so, this is definitely earthquake now.

On Wed meditation, I remember I cried loads n later got idea on strategy n see this as an opportunity to revamp.

On Thursday I told Mgm n they think that is the process.

Then my colleague said that there is a possibility of losing the client and this a real major earthquake but then it would do a total downsizing from big to small n we start again.

I m fine. I am leader n I accept that I will attract to situations whereby leadership is required. With this possibility of major earthquake, that means m truly ready to be a true leader.
Amen.

My swan, I wil always listen to u, u r my heart n help me to keep my eagle in check. I need u both.