Without a price, u get nothing.

15 feb

Soul - tot of me n my reporting. Alas not only have I overcome d reporting, but also become the 2nd best among the asia pacific. I can already leave by 7.30 pm, something unimaginable previously. I learnt to take one day at a time. Now with Temp Accountant joining me as permanent staff, things will further improve. Again, the Ace in me is saying what's next but for now I wan to savour it. I may leave in future and if I do leave, it wil be because of pull factor as d push factor is diminishing. I may not enjoy workin wit my current boss but we have come to an understanding.

I who attach my value to job. Firstly I had to attach it to reporting, which I finally overcome n now the next phase, not even sure what it is, but guess something related to Boss. What if I cannot do it, m I facing d routine again - father, let me remember my job is not me.

Father, m also worried abt leaving, now that I have conquered my fear of reporting. Yea, I forgot the bigger lesson is me attaching my value to job.

Sadhguru (pg 76)
Without a price, u get nothing.
For d spiritual person, nothing is great benediction, nothing is a problem. Everything is just another life situation through which they become free.
In order to be free, cultivate awareness.
If u r not able to relate to things around you, to people around you, it is not because there is something wrong wit u. You are either a little misplaced, or out of ur foolishness, you got misplaced in this life.
Once u become aware, u have to make the little arrangements that are needed to put urself in the right place. If u know u r a coconut, then u shld have fallen here at the foothills, not on the mountain top. It is no use, you can't grow there. You have to roll down somehow. If u have to roll down, maybe u have to loose something (success/comfort after conquering)

Father, part of me know that its ending. Everything is falling in place.
But the swan in me thinks is not fair, that we have beginning again. My mom has always told me that I tend to leave whenever everything has fallen in space and she thinks m a glutton for punishment. She does have a point though, but I have changed. I recalled that the first time I didn't welcome new beginning was when I had to leave my former company, leaving my peers. And now would be the 2nd time now, leaving my reporting.
Both are also leaving my achievement.