Can't believe the Loving experience is real

Father, witnessing.

I was telling my close friend that I am aware of witnessing since eons ago when I learned about projection. But perhaps that is not so correct.
I know whenever I judged others, I will bring myself back thru will power n right thinking.
But bringing myself back when I am judging myself, don't really recall.
Yday, I knew my fear came up n there is another person that was observing the fear and curiously wonder why the fear arise.

1. The issue. Celebration
Make it fun, a celebration, and then u will enter the temple.
Don't be too wise. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good and the right combination makes u a buddha
You have become more and more available and open to the many opportunities that are to celebrate in life and to spread this by contagion to others.

Soul - I think it ask me not to worry so much. Jus savour all the loving things coming my way. Don't resist my desires. Don't worry that if I act on my desires, it be detrimental. Afraid d past will repeat itself, putting out one fire after the other.

2. Internal influence - Adventure
Truth has nothing to do with past. Truth is a radical, personal realisation. You have to come to it.
Insecurity is the only way to grow. To face danger is the only way to grow, to accept the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow.
Whenever we move into the new and unknown with the trusting spirit of a child, innocent and open and vulnerable, even the smallest things of life can become greatest adventure.

Soul - yeap, jus trust where d manifestation of Desires will bring me. My Desires is materialising, perhaps not in the form that I tot of, but the substance is there.
My brief to the Universe is very simple and encompassing - Attract loving people and loving circumstances to me.
Everything that happens so far has been loving.
From d loving accident, loving cab driver in d morning, to the loving cab driver at night who accepted RM2 less.

3. External - Trust
Trust life. If you trust, only then can u drop ur knowledge, drop ur mind. And with trust, something immense opens up. Then this life is no longer ordinary life, it becomes full of God, overflowing.
Just jump without a tot of what happen next.

Soul - yea, that's what been happening since my accident.

4. What is needed - New Vision
When u open up to the ultimate, immediately it pours into you. You are no longer an ordinary human being - u have transcended. Your insight has become the insight of the whole existence. Now you are no longer separate - u have found ur roots.
Threefold nature of the universe; manifest, unmanifest and the human being who contains both.
Now u r presented wit an opportunity to see life in all its dimensions, from the depths to the heights.
They exist together, and when we come to know from experience that the dark and the difficult are needed as much as the light and easy, then we begin to hav a different perspective of the world.
By allowing all colours to penetrate us, we become more integrated.

Soul - contrast is good. When facing contrast, it force us to realise what we don't want, by right next step is what we do want. This is where we r stuck cos we seldom ask for what we desires. We are afraid to ask more cos we tot is limited, we tot is greedy.

5. Travelling
When this card appears in a reading, it indicates a time of movement and change; It may be physical movement from one place to the next, or an inner movement from one way of being to another.
But whatever the case, this card promises that the going will be easy and will bring forward a sense of adventure and growth; there is no need to struggle or plan too much.
It also remind us to accept and embrace the new, jus as when we travel from one cultute to the other.

Soul - I know m changing from one being to another.