I too am not real

Father, d call from June, my tenant was great. She agreed to 2 mths and also has sang me a birthday song. She said if I renovate d place a bit, then can get even more rental. I told her I miss her n hope that I have a tenant like her again. I have been lucky in getting good tenant.

Yday evening, my colleague shared about our top client scolding our boss. I was thinking Universe is moving things for me, removing all unloving people. I then said to Universe, "Wouldn't it be nice if the Client were to call our Group Chairman and asked for change of Head". Our boss always attacking internal team and now finally getting from external and worst case, by our major client, someone she proclaim to be on good relationship. This is her karma relationship payback year.
I was smiling when I drove all the way back. Amen

This morning before meditation, my tot was she deserved it. Again I said to Universe, "Wouldn't it be nice if the Client were to call our Group Chairman.

With that I started meditation, I was in by the mid of 1st song. Then during the fluttering breath, a new position, my head down on d floor, the front part of body pushed forward (already happen a few days now), but now added with my lower body moving. I was surprised n just continue.
When I was in silent mode, I started to laugh within minutes, this is the first time for morning meditation. I wonder if this is bcos, I started d meditation with happy tot.

Tot of my colleague, her saying she is ok being a mistress, her saying she doesn't pity herself. God, then who else will pity her. If she thinks she is so unlovable, no wonder keep on attracting clingy people. While is tiring, perhaps it make her feel important. She said she didn't wan to lead d company n been wondering why she still stay. I told her we also wonder the same thing. To take the shit, knowing your boss won't let u grow and then not wanting to lead if boss leaves. So, why stay and of cos even worst, don't mind being a mistress.
Father, let me learn from this. We create our world by the belief of ourself. What we believe, we expect and what we expect, we get. Amen.

Yesterday I was reading d natal chart, very true. In the natal chart, is mentioned that I am guided by emotion and my gut feeling (intuition)
Looking at me, previously can't see it but now because of meditation, emotion is let out. Like my good friend said, so much emotion inside me. Yeap, suppressed for so long. That is why exploded in Isha cos it broke my wall of suppression. I think this time when I go back, there will be no more explosion, jus nice normal feeling.

Father, perhaps I didn't realise I am loved cos I was suppressing my feeling. I couldn't feel others and mine too. I feel d sadness, suffering, sorrow, anguish, appreciation, thankfulness, gratitude, happiness, joy, blissfulness. Blissful is love.

I now can real the whole range of emotion from anguish to blissfulness, the emotion pendulum has swing to both its end. Amen.

Ask and it is given
Because everything carries its own vibration, and because you develop a vibrational relationship with everything in your life, your personal belongings do have an impact on the way you feel and your point of attraction.
So it is important to remove clutter from your environment.

Feeling of sadness that feels empty. People often try to fill that emptiness with stuff. They buy one more thing and bring it home or they eat something; in other words, there are lots of creative ways in which you have tried to fill that void.
Discard everything from your experience that is not essential to your now.

You all have a capacity for attraction, and when your process is clogged with stuff that you no longer want, the new attraction is slower - and then u end up with a feeling of frustration or overwhelment.

The wallet process
Each time u acknowledge u have the power, right there in ur wallet, to purchase this or to do that, over and over again you add to ur sense of financial well-being, so ur point of attraction begin to shift.

You see, u do not have to actually be abundant in order to attract abundance, but you do have to feel abundant.
A clearer way of saying is that any feeling of lack of abundance causes a resistance that does not allow abundance.

Soul - Me, never tot of having money. Just tot I need money to feel secure n hence cannot spend so much. Always pay my debt first so that I can be freed from commitment. Money is jus security but to have money, I need to work. So, there is a price to pay for security n hence cannot spend more cos have to pay more.
Aiyah, how to be rich? No wonder salary still on d low side. Also afraid of getting higher pay, then cannot afford to come down. Higher pay means higher responsibility, means more burden, means trapped, means loss of freedom.
Wah, no wonder lah pay is on d low side. I deserved the salary m having cos I was afraid to have more money.

Ask and it is given

So, by mentally spending this money again and again, you practice the vibration of Well-Being, of security, of abundance, and of financial security, and the Universe responds to the vibration you have achieved by matching it with manifested abundance.
Seemingly magical things will begin to occur as soon as you achieve that wonderful feeling of financial abundance. The money you are currently earning will seem to go further. Unexpected amount of money in various increment will begin to show up in your experience.
You will be offered opportunities to be able to "earn" all the abundance that you can believe is possible.
In time, it will feel as if a floodgate of abundance has opened, and u will find urself wondering where all that abundance had been hiding all along.

"I could have that. I could have that. I have the ability to purchase that". Because u really do have the means to do just that, because u r not pretending something that is not, there is now no hindering doubt or disbelief muddying the waters of your financial flow.

Soul - I only tot of financial independence, not of financial abundance.
Father, me so "dry". Didn't realise I am loved, didn't realise I am rich.
No wonder, no love and mid money.
Amen, will change.

Ask and it is given
You have to feel good about great abundance before you will allow the pleasure of great abundance to flow into your experience.
The wallet process is another means of giving deliberate attention to what makes u feel good.

Soul - jus realised I AM NOT REAL. I have hide and denied my Richness and Love
In the natal chart, it state that I identified love with money. So since I felt not loved, I felt I hav no money too. That is why I want a financially successful n loving husband cos it was what I tot lacking in me.

For the first time I dare to declare, "I want a rich man". Someone that can give me the luxury that I don't dare to give to myself.

I am actually rich and well loved but I believe n behave otherwise. I am not showing my true self.
Alas now I realised why I cannot identify with the Queen Diamond - abt having loads of money and giving out loads too, a Philanthropist.

I just cried in the toilet, feeling regrets for all those years of not feeling loved, not knowing I have money.

I behaved and acted as if I am earning 6k (only luxury is d food) and not loved.

Father, Thank You so much.