Why I beat myself up?

Sadhguru, why I feel fear? Why I am bothered that I replied to Fred's email. Why d fear? Perhaps cos our colleagues don't do anything.
Actually why do I judged myself so badly. I am a careful n good communicator 95% of the time, but the 5% that I didn’t do well, I beat myself up. What about those people who is only good 5% instead, why can't I be thankful m good instead of judging myself n worried about other perception of me, how they see me n etc.

Today I shared with my colleague n she said m afraid or can't believe m receiving loving people n circumstances, similar to her not able to receive a compliment that she is beautiful.
Father, let me see this.

Father, how can I judge myself like that. Why am I not loving to myself? Why I can't believe I m loved? Why do need to remind myself so frequently?

Sadhguru
Your personality, the stronger it is, the more odoriferous it is. You can only go far in life only when u can leave ur past. This is like a snake shedding its skin.
If every moment, one is like a snake leaving the skin behind, only then there is growth. His action never left any residue.
Only that person who does not carry the previous moment to this moment, only that person is free from everything and that quality is felt everywhere. Within a few minutes of meeting you, people will trust u to the extent that they would not trust their parents, spouse, simply because u don't carry the burden of the past wit u.


Soul - I felt better now. Not as attacking on myself as before.
Yeap, I didn't communicate well, but is ok. I need not stick to my image of myself.
On people trusting me...i always have people telling me their secrets and most people is comfortable with me. Perhaps, i dont have such a strong personality..I wonder.