Have faith - don't doubt yourself

Dec 6
Yea, up n down. Not really lookin forward to go client office - hv to leave office by 7.45 am.
Also, not sure wan to do sathsang.
Basically jus don't feel great.
M in contraction mode now.
Last 2 days were on high. Even when I wanted a mineral bottle, it appears.
Where is my enthusiasm, when I had d biz idea for my website.
Now jus feel don't wan to do anything.

Jus did shoonya for 10 min n felt better. Now I know why I feel bit off cos I hav a long way to go to achieve my dreams. Its true I felt great attending my ex-staff wedding, but when is mine. And my dream to be a Transformational Leader is still an uphill tasks.
Then a tot came, 5 love language's book said that if I think the road ahead is uphill, that's mean m on d right track.

I guess part of me think I hav arrive n I don't want to slough again. Jus like I already hav comfortable life at office n now need to be commercial director, another uphill again, feelin bit resentful I still hav to perform, learn new things. Then a tot came, jus used d learning, meeting wit clients as part of tools in my dream to be a transformational leader. Learning to communicate wit general public.
Jus like sathsang.

The secret of the ages
The more a man knocks me, the more he advertises me; becos he calls attention to me; and if I am delivering something better than he says I am, the interested parties will notice me.

Soul - this feel like God knocking on me. Achievement after achievement. But I guess since my Dream is big, I need more advertisement.

The secret of ages
1. Belief - Knowledge of ur power so u can hav confidence in urself.
2. Initiative or the courage to start things. Lots of men hav ideas, but few have the confidence in themselves or the courage to start anything.
3. Faith to go ahead and do things in the face of all obstacles.

Never let discouragement to hold u back. For failure n success oftentimes separated by only the distance of that one word - discouragement.

Cultivate the confidence in yourself. Cultivate the feeling that you are succeeding.
Know u have unlimited power to do every right thing.
Know that wit Universal Mind to draw upon, no position is too difficult, and no problem too hard.
When u put limitations upon urself, when u doubt ur ability to meet any situation, u r placing limit upon Universal Mind.
Wit knowledge of ur power, with that confidence in the unlimited resources of Universal Mind, it is easy enough to show initiative, it is easy enough to find the courage to start things.

Soul - I know my forte n I know I hav power on one to one. But m not sure power over general public. Aiyah, mayb sathsang is a good place to start.
Yea, jus my resentment cropping up. Why gave me such high passion. Why can't I be jus like my ex-staff. Don't even hav to use their bachelor degree, jus rely on their husband to take care of everything. Their life is mapped out. And mine, I hav to map on my own n its big.
Aiya, on d positive note, m complaining havin to get an uphill route, rather than fear of not able to climb the uphill route. That's means I can do it, just that m reluctant cos m feelin resentful, feeling not loved. Me, hav to do service - which is not my love language n yet I hav to do.

Father,....guide me. Some connection there but I don't know. Let me see why I m resentful of havin to grow by myself. Why I think I need a man.