Philanthropist - creation of activity to promote human welfare

Dec 16
Father, I like that my meditation posture evolve. Yday nite posture of head turnin in, feet n hand up is also carried today. And final posture of crouching is also there.
D laughter is much lesser n meditation is quiet.

Suria Namaskara is getting easier n I think time frame also reduced already. I m so thankful that m now doing yoga n start my day wit shower. My shoulder stiffness is nearly gone. M not even aware unless m consciously feeling for d stiffness. Thank You. Not sure if d yoga or release of karma.
Yday n today meditation is different. Little laughter n more silence and is as if I m not here. Or shld I say as if my mind has stop n no tots comin thru.
Not sure if this is becos of another breakthru n I told CEO of my feelin whenever she give ultimatum that sounds so threatening.

I shared my resignation n change to part time wit my ex-staff who has followed me throughtout my 10 years of transformation. I asked him that he has been wit me all these years n can see d transformation in me.
Why he didn't act on his own dream. He said its due to fear of people n family opinion n lack of courage. I told him of my experience of fear of telling my family m gone for CNY. Countless fear and in d end, my family is fine wit it. They miss me but understand is a choice I made. So I told him to at least share his dream wit his brother. He doesn't hav to act on his dream but at least share it. My cousin didn't share her dream. She keep it to herself thinking it won't ever happen n resigned herself to accept. But alas she was so unhappy that she jus give up on her life. I won't let her death pass me by. Its what keep me pursuing my passion to transform myself and to help others.

Osho for d week
1. Issue - Flowering
Your benediction n blissfulness should not be contained within you like a seed. It shld open like a flower n spread its fragrance to all and sundry - not only to friends but to the strangers as well

Soul - jus did a mail on partnership. The website of knowledge is real to me and it is a long term role. Jus like d Befriender.

2. Internal influence that u r unable to see - silence
The energy of the whole has taken posession of u. You are possessed, you are no more, the whole is.
It is easy for u to rest inside, to plumb the depths of ur own inner silence to the point where it meets the silence of the universe.
Now is the time to come home to urself.
The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of ur life.

Soul - meeting d silence of d Universe. That's what I was experiencing yday n today.
As for insight n etc, not sure yet.

3. External - New Vision
Being born anew, emerging from ur earthbound roots and growing wings to fly into the unbounded.
When we come to know from experience that the dark and the difficult are needed as mich as the light and easy, then we begin to have a different perspective on the world. By allowing all of life's colours to penetrate us, we become integrated.

Soul - I who think I was unlovable by God cos made to experience so much challenges now know that m loved n d challenges is needed by me to make me whole.
Finally sufferingisblessing is realised in me.

4. What is needed for resolution - Patience
Wit a great trust, that the old has gone and the new will soon be coming.
In silence n waiting, something inside you goes on growing - your authentic being.
And one day, it jumps and becomes a flame and ur whole personality is shattered and u r a new man. This new man know life's eternal juices.
Simply to be alert, patient and waiting,

Soul - definitely easier now to wait.

5. The resolution - The dream
If u watch urself deeply, all activities (reading, watching tv playing, working, marriage, relationship) can be reduced to one single source. The source is that you are afraid of ur aloneness. Everything else is just an excuse. The real excuse is that you find yourself very alone.

Nobody (whether soul mate, husband, parnter) and nothing (work, biz, achievement, success) in the future has any obligation or power to deliver ur happiness on a platter + nor could they even if they wanted to.

Real love comes not from trying to solve ur neediness by depending on another, but by developing our own inner richness and maturity. Then we have so much love to give that we naturally draw lovers to us.

Soul - amen.

Great, V has created the web project mgm n I hav input my tot n queries on partnership.

Jus checked my 7thunder card
Queen of Spades - card of self-mastery
Success in our external life by mastering ourselves within. This means creating more success by changing our inner tots, beliefs, and attitudes instead of trying to alter our external circumstances.

Been getting this card quite a lot lately...

Afternoon
Jus now shoonya - so deep. I was lost in time. No tots at all.
Perhaps this d experience stated in my weekly Osho card:
It is easy for u to rest inside, to plumb the depths of ur own inner silence to the point where it meets the silence of the universe.

Jus now I wrote to Regional to seek confirmation if d part time is on, but no reply. Then I tot flight care, I m goin 31 Mar anyway, and besides who know perhaps there is a rich Philanthropist that will offer me 8k to be their support for their philanthropist work. Me managing their charity contribution n of cos I will seek funding for myself.
I recall when I met d Philanthropist in Nov 09, I tot that it wil be good if she can employ me to do her work. Flying everywhere, reviewing her charity contribution. And me hav time to do my website. Perfect. That cld be d next step. Someone paying me to work on my dream full time.

Benjamin Franklin (Poor Richard)
How much more than is necessary do we spend in sleep, forgetting that "The sleeping fox catches no poultry" and that "There wil be sleeping enough in the grave"

If time be of all things, the most precious, wasting time must be, the greatest prodigality.
Lost time is never found again.
Sloth makes all things difficult, but industry all easy.

So what signifies wishing and hoping for better times? We may make these times better if we bestir ourselves.
Industry need not wish and he that lives upon hope will die fasting.
There are no gains without pains.
Then help, hands, for I have no land, or if I have, they are smartly taxed.

He that hath a trade hath an estate;
He that hath a calling, hath an office of profit and honour;
But then trade must be worked at, and the calling well followed, or neither estate nor office will enable us to pay our taxes.
If we are industrious, we shall never starve for industry pay debts, while despair increase them.
Diligence is the mother of good luck
God gives all things to industry. Then plough deep while sluggards sleep and u shall have corn to sell and keep.
One today is worth two tomorrows. Have u somewhat to do tomorrow, do it today.

Me thinks I hear some of u say, "Must a man afford himself no leisure?"
I will tell thee, my friend, "Employ thy time well, if thouse meanest to gain leisure", and "Since thou are not sure of a minute, throw not away an hour.
Leisure time is for doing something useful; this leisure diligent man will obtain, but the lazy man never. So, life of leisure and life of laziness are two things.
Do u imagine that sloth will afford u more comfort than labour?
No, trouble springs from idleness, grievous toil from needless ease.
Many, without labour, wld live by their wits only, but they break for want of stock. Whereas industry give comfort and plenty and respect.

Soul - suddenly I tot that I can hav a column in d paper. Sharing my tots of people.

Evening
When sharing wit FM, told her abt d Philanthropist that I met. She didn't know d meaning n I google for her. Surprisingly there is other meaning to philantropy as below;

Philanthropist
Love of humankind in general
Something, such as activity or institution, institution, intended to promote human welfare.

I used to wonder why Queen of diamond is a Philanthropist when I don't hav money. I tot I hav to marry into money to fulfill my destiny. Alas now I know it need not be related to money but can be services. And me, now on d path of fulfilling my destiny. Amen.

Secret of the ages
Our mind is part of Universal Mind and as such it can foresee, it can guard against and it can protect us from harm of any kind.

Hence we must understand that we have but to seek that solution to any problem that we faced.

Forget ur fears. Forget ur worries. In place of them, visualise the conditions you would like to see. Realise their availability.
Declare to urself, u already hav all these things that u desire.

Our doubts sap our energy; kill enthusiasm; rob us of success.

Break free of limitation to pursue my Passions. We put a limit upon the good that can come to us. Only you can create the conditon.