North Node in Eleventh house by Gargothill - group and self identity

Mar 27 eve o

Soul
Mine is 11th house
Eleventh house: “Receiving love through friendships, and like-minded groups”



Gargothill
North Node in the Eleventh house                 
The Unfolding of Your Destiny Is Focused on Group Identity
                                                
            The North Node in the Eleventh Housee indicates that it may be your destiny to develop your sense of group identity, particularly in terms of developing social responsibility.  You must become better integrated into the larger social unit and establish your individual identity within the group in a healthy and balanced manner.  To this end, your destiny has been framed to present appropriate learning opportunities.
            It may be difficult for you to gain affinity with a group or come to terms with the need for social responsibility, but it is unlikely that you can avoid these issues.  The challenges facing you may involve finding your place within a group, coming to terms with your role in society, being concerned for the future or developing a concern for the well-being of humanity. It is likely that, in the past (including your past life development), you have not paid sufficient attention to being involved in group settings and/or to your responsibilities to society and humanity. You are now called upon to undertake these obligations in your present life.
            You may have an overwhelming desire to be a part of some group or to participate in some cause devoted to social uplift.  However, because you may be deficient in karmic or sanskaric (past life) experiences in such Eleventh House matters, you may find group interaction or social participation to be difficult, unfamiliar and fraught with pitfalls.  If you are insecure, you may choose to avoid this area of life.  However, it is more likely that you will respond to this challenge, which you feel destined to meet.
            At least initially in life, you may have a tendency to avoid groups and/or matters of social responsibility, as you hesitate to confront your destiny lesson.  Ultimately, if you are to be successful in actualizing your life's potential, you must come to terms with your need for group and social involvement.  The unfolding of your destiny is most likely to occur within the context of group life or social involvement.  Joining a particular group, organization or cause may seem to have a certain fated quality.
            You are also likely to be confronted with contradictory drives for commitment to a group or society, on the one hand, and developing your own individual identity, on the other hand.  Part of your destiny lesson, then, may be to resolve the apparent paradoxes between group-identity and self-identity.

Transcendent Potential
            You can realize the transcendent potential of the North Node in the Eleventh House when you  begin to be motivated by a desire to improve the condition of humanity.  You then work diligently to bring about these results.  You progress beyond identification with any single group or organization and you consider yourself to be a citizen of the world, a member of the class "Humanity."
            Nevertheless, if you are honest with yourself, you may find yourself realizing that you are inadequate to the task improving general human welfare.  At most, you can make an incremental difference, and you are not without faults and short-comings.  You conclude that, in order to assist humanity, you must first tend to your own improvement.  Then, you can be an example to others.
            Consequently, you learn to serve others and work for the betterment of humanity with humility and without any involvement of your ego.  While attending to the physical, social and economic needs of those less fortunate, you realize that the greatest betterment is the betterment of humanity's spiritual welfare.  Again, you conclude that the most effective way to accomplish this is by example.

Insecurity
            If you are inwardly insecure, you will be afraid to give up your own identity.  Thus, you avoid group involvement, because this requires individual commitment and carries a risk that you may be criticized by the group.  You may also be expected by the group to sacrifice your selfish interests.
            If you cannot resist the pull of destiny, you will recast your involvement in a group so as to preserve your ego's supremacy.  You may seek a leadership position in the group or otherwise so strongly identify with the group that the group becomes an alter-ego for you. You, then, are free to imagine that you are part of--essential to--a grand destiny to actualized yourself through the group.
      -- Gargatholil                 

Soul
took me a long time..
Firstly to escape and then to come back..many cycles.
Yes..I do want group...but not the validation.
I now am okay on my own...
My focus now just to be where I am...
But I now come to the point that I will always be around..doing what I want..but I am no longer a permanent fixture in the group..