Eat, Pray and Love - a timely message

Eat, pray and love
To find the balance u want. U must keep ur feet grounded so firmly on the earth that its like u have four legs instead of two. That way, u can stay in the world.
But u must stop looking at the world through ur head. U must look thru ur heart, instead. That way u will know God.
Rumi - Write down the three things u wanted most in life. If any item on the list clashes with any other item, u r destined for unhappiness. Better to live a life of single-pointed focus.

But what abt the benefits of living harmoniously amid extreme. What if you could somehow create an expansive enough lige that u could synchronise seemingly incongrous opposites into a worldview that exclude nothing.
I wanted worldly enjoyment and divine transcendence - the dual glories of a human life. I have been missing both of these because pleasure n devotion requires a stress-free space in which to flourish and I have been living in a giant compactor of non-stop anxiety.

Soul - Father, really my book. My list is in conflict. Hence I am afraid to go in deeper to any of the items cos fear of losing another. I have been changing jobs, always on the move, always performing and achieving, at the most about 1 mth slack n I start to feel insecure n start to find work.
Father, Elizabeth really reminds me of myself:
Food - I love italian food
Prayer - I am attracted to indian spirituality
Balance - I like Bali.

Furthermore, she is a Cancer horoscope, with Gemini rising - same as me, what an amazing coincidence.

Eat, Pray and Love
A soul has been blessed with the highest and most auspicious luck in the universe;
1. To have been born a human being, capable of conscious enquiry.
2. To have been born with or to have a developed - a yearning to understand the nature of universe.
3. To have found a living spiritual master.

There is a theory that if u yearn sincerely enough for a Guru, u will find one. The universe will shift and ur path will soon intersect with the path of the master u need.

Soul - I am blessed indeed.

Eat, Pray and Love
You are a powerful woman and u r used to getting what u want out of life and when u didn't get what u want in ur last few relationship and its got u all jammed up. Your husband didn't behave the way u wanted him to and David didn't either. Life didn't go ur way for once. And nothing pisses off a control freak more than life not going her way.

Soul - this is so me.

Eat, Pray and Love
At some point, you gotta to let go and sit still and allow contentment to come to u.

Letting go, of course, is a scary enterprise for those of us who believe that the world revolves only because it has a handle on top of it which we have to personally turn, and that if we were to drop this handle for even a moment, well - that would be the end of the universe.

Soul - this is so me.

Eat, Pray and Love
The Gurugita - 182 verses of sanskrit, the conversation between Shiva and Parvati.
I can't even sing it and can only croak it resentfully. When I sing, I am sweating heavily despite cold morning. And also experience hot waves of emotion that rock me as I try to sing the thing.
I always tries to back out n seek to excuse myself n seek Swami's advice.

Swami said it is up to her if she wants to do it. But Gurugita is a very important practice, next to meditation.
Swami said Gurugita isn't supposed to be fun song to sing. Its a text of unimaginable power. It is a mighty purifying practice. It burns away all ur junk, ur negative emotion. And its having a positive effect on you if u r experiencing such strong emotions and physical reactions while u r chanting it. This stuff can be painful, but it is awfully beneficial.
If something is rubbing u so hard against u, u can be sure it is working on.

Soul - this is so me on Guru Pooja. I was so resistant and didn't wan to do it on my own. Alas once forced to, I start to break down on 1st day, crying to teacher that I don't wan to do Guru Pooja cos it makes me cry. Then second day, the continuous singing of 7 rounds, just into 3 round, I broke down n cries n cries my heart out. Very much later, I start to laugh n laugh.
On 3 rd day, we have to do it on our own n I just did 4 stanza out of 13 stanza and I start to cry uncontrollably.
I have been avoiding it becos of strong painful emotion.
This is like a reminder - so me.
Yday, I did guru pooja 1 round before kriya and I cried uncontrollably at the final session.

Eat, Pray and Love
The moment I come to this yogic path and saw photograph of Swamiji and heard stories about him, I've thought, I am just going to stay clear of this character. He is too big. He makes me nervous.
I have been dodging the idea of him for a long time and generally avoiding his gaze as it stared down at me from the walls.

Soul - this is so me. I recalled that I was avoiding Sadhguru pix's gaze. I felt he is looking thru me and asking me to do things m not ready for. Asking more than what I am willing to give.
Alas, I can now look n coincidentally he be coming to Singapore in August. I guess I am ready.

Evening
Jus finished reading, Eat, Pray & Love. This is very timely in my path. Thanks for sending so many messengers to me.