With opportunity, comes fear

Morning
I woke up and this is my first tot and was thinking about all my former CEOs
Slow death
Death
Not growing
Deteriorate

All these adjectives are describing me as I was unwilling to grow to be a Queen.

Evening
My fear of having my time encroached off office hour n I will be on 24 x 7.
Fear I won't have time for meditation.
Fear I have to meet challenges again
Fear that I have no more strength to meet challenges

Amazingly, I have no fear of not able to handle d job or d foreign people or of not meeting expectation.
Aiyah, calm down. Now that I have Isha yoga, I am no longer as concerned with all my fear. I have the tool to overcome my fears.

Fear of no time, I am no longer a workaholic n not tied my value to job achievement, so as long as I managed myself, is ok.

Shared with my friend that I might apply for a regional position and she said that I am definitely ready for regional position and I know my ex-staff would also agree with her.

Evening
After finished my exercise, suddenly tot of listening to the cd - Way of the Heart.
Got this cds few years back and I tried to listen but somehow it didn’t connect with me but it did connect with my close friend.

Today I listened to the cd and I find myself more receptive. Coincidentally, I have jus mid this week decided to grow up and take care of my own heart and now suddenly listening to the Way of the Heart. The Way of the Heart is asking me to trust Him while He exposed me to situations that will release all the hidden illusions I have inside me.

I will start to listen to the cds on a weekly basis.

Sadhguru
Whoever did anything without thinking of sacrifice/benefits, without second thoughts.
Only he can experience something, a certain strength, a certain power within himself, that somebody who is trying to protect himself will never experience.

Soul
I am still thinking of the advertisement for Finance Director – Asia.
Father, I don't know. I just don't wan to fall into trap of looking for growth in wrong places.
On second tot, there are no wrong places, cos every company I worked in, I have learned n transformed, even in the current company, the worst n lowest level I have ever been, it brought me Isha yoga. For that, I am forever thankful.