Guru pooja - is the key

May 11
Soul - Did guru pooja three times n was in tears. Then did my kriya n was in tears too, a little laughter in the end.

Father, when I was crying, part of me judged myself n d other part cried out that we too wan to be loved for our tears n not just laughter.

Guru Pooja has taken my meditation to another level. I can't say I enjoy it cos so much tears but I cannot hold on to the past. Now is 2nd level, looks like even if I didn't go to sunil or samyama, I am already at the next level.

So much tears, m not looking forward but like Sadhguru said even if I don't understand why m now in tears, jus continue. Will seek Sadhguru’s advice.


Sadhguru
Maybe u can fool urself and to that extent u can put up an act. Madness is just the ego n it need some expression.
Layer n layer of madness. This is not jus something u gathered in a few years. Its an accumulation of a lifetime.
It has to be worked out. There is no other way. Either u drop the whole thing and walk away or slowly cleanse the bag.
When there is a certain madness within u, u can only be in lust. Your lust can be for sex, for food or work or any hobby. Without that lust u cannot live.

Father, thanks for sending Sadhguru.

Sadhguru, thanks for showing d way. Like my friend said, perhaps I need equate tears wit sadness....its jus a release of negativity.