Mind cannot surrender easily

Swami Rama
Know that the manas of ur mind will always ask "Shall I do it or not?" The counselor is ur buddhi - always ask it for guidance.

Your mind is like a genie, higher than any power, faster than the speed of light or electricity; it is the fastest of all entities. Nothing has gone beyond that speed except one - and he is an enlightened one. To be enlightened means to have gone beyond the speed of mind. Spirit is beyond the speech of mind. Spirit is everywhere. The poor mind cannot match its speed

Soul - yea, I knew how powerful the mind is. Even my control mode combined with knowledge has not been able to manage it. It was this reason that I lost hope and referred to others as I can't do it on my own and it is because of this I searched for meditation. Now, I am saved.

Swami Rama
When the mind becomes aware that Spirit is everywhere, then it surrenders. You reach such a height that the mind doesn't function any longer. It is still there but it becomes aware of the reality, its ego vanishes. That is the meaning of self surrender.

Soul - I did surrender during meditation and hence I flowered and go into my blissfulness but when awake, my ego is still in charge.

Swami Rama
The knowledge of the mind, the senses and instinctual knowledge do not help in ur surrendering. They are important and we need them and can use them, but the highest of all knowledge is intuition. And this comes only when your buddhi is purified and your mind is refined. Intuition does not require any evidence at all; it does not need to ask if something is right. When u have intuition, u don't have to ask about it. This only comes when ur buddhis is purified and ur mind is refined.

Intuition helps u see things and know things as they are and then u no longer see things incompletely and partially.

Soul - I have been known as a cutter - cut thro the veil/shit and get to the core. I knew I have intuitive power but still need honing.