Support to overcome resistance (fear)

Osho card
1. We r the world - Isha community of sharing

2. Internal -The Master - mastery over ourself by meditation - finding ur lights among the seekers' energy field.

3. External - Sorrow - The pain is not to make u miserable, is to make u aware. Time of great sorrow have the potential to be times of great transformation. But in order for transformation to happen, we must go deep, to the very roots of our pain, and experience it as it is, without blame and self-pity.

4. What is needed - The Source. Come out of the head and go to the basic. Learn to be at the Source.

5. The resolution - Projections.
The only way to reach to truth is to learn how to be immediate in ur vision, how to drop the help of the mind. How not to project ur impression unto situations and people surrounding us. This happens when we r not fully aware of our own expectations, desires n judgements. Mind only create dreams. Thru ur excitement, the dream starts looking like reality. Then whatsoever u see is jus a projections.

A projections can be devilish, divine, disturbing or comforting. Always ask urself, is ur vision clear or clouded by what u wan to see?


Osho - the Master
The whole work of meditation is to make u aware of all that is "mind" and disidentify yourself from it. The very separation is the greatest resolution that can happen to man. Now u can do and act only that which makes u more joyous, fulfills u, gives u contentment, makes ur life a work of art, beauty. Once ur awareness becomes a flame, it burns up the whole slavery that the mind has created. There is no blissfulness more precious than freedom, than being a master of ur own destiny.

Soul - I have been grasping on and on about my resistance. Knowing I put a brake to my spiritual devt, currently guru pooja. There were so many hints/guide that asked me to proceed ahead n yet I still resist. Yesterday meeting, I saw them so joyous n here I kept resisting. When I left yday, I still had no plans to do guru pooja, except in d evening. This mornin when I woke up, I tot why stil resist when I know there are good benefits. Jus do it. And I did it despite my mind stil resisting. Perhaps this is the disidentification from the mind.

I been telling others that I don't have much changes from yoga kriya and I do it not due to the benefit. I do it because I really enjoy d meditation. I look forward to it.

My benefits
1. Stop chewing gum
2. Need less massage
3. Mornin nose block reduce by half.
4. Weight balance despite me eating much more.
5. Aware whenever I am stressed due to attachment to job.
6 Aware of my resistance
7. Noted my resistance and still proceed ahead despite the mind's resistance.

Osho - Sorrow
To enable transformation to happen, we must go deep, to the very roots of our pain, and experience it as it is, without blame or self-pity.

Soul - yea, that's was what I resisted, I didn wan to feel sad. I didn't want to suffer. I want to continue laughing. I wan to enjoy my meditation. This mornin, during aum, during quick breathe - some tears were rising but didn't come out. I guess I resisted. Tonite will let it come. Will use my blackberry to sing.