My name - the one who knows; the one who understand??

I am glad I went to the Ashram, a good break, away from hustle and bustle of the world.
M feelin bit calmer. At first when I saw the sms on reporter, felt put upon but then tot that I wil do what I can. Anyway, m not as committed as them. Tot of me n mom, cannot be committed to spiritual work, mom is committed to family and me, to work.

Do I want to commit to my office work now? I questioned that. My job. I don't really care abt it. Worst case, I can just fly off to Ashram n live there as a volunteer. Anyway, won't reach that level but it is an option. I m no longer willing to give my commitment to work, but to redirect it to me.


Deliberate Creation
Many people believe that day dreaming or fantasizing is a frivolous use of time. We see it as utilising ur Emotional Guidance System for the purpose of directing the power of ur mind to activate the vibration, which is ur point of attraction.

There is not a great difference between remembering and imagining. When u focus positively, apart from whatever is happening right now, u can activate a vibration that will attract something different into ur experience.
But if u insist on giving ur attention only to the reality that exists, then nothing can change.

Soul - I used to be afraid when I found myself day dreaming cos its frivolous and wil only raise my hope and set me up for disappointment. We'll, now I wil daydream.

In the Ashram, many people asked me the meaning of my name. My name - :"Hui" the one who knows, "Ming" the one who understand. All of them said my name is good for me and very appropriate.
As, Ambikaar said, in the right place.


Osho for the week
1. Issue. Innocence
If u drop all that has been given by others, u will hav a totally different quality to ur being ; innocence. U wil become a child again, reborn. Its a time of letting go of ur personality.
Pink flowers cascade around his presence, a reflection of his own qualities. The innocence of a life lived fully has a quality of wisdom and acceptance of the ever-changing wonder of life.

2. Internal Influence
Existence. U r not accidental. Existence needs u. Existence cares for u. Once u r clean and clear, u can see tremendous love falling on u from all dimensions.
U wil know Home is not a physical place in the outside world, but an inner quality of relaxation and acceptance.

3. External influence u r aware.
Letting Go - in Existence, there is nobody who is superior and nobody who is inferior. The innocent person is one who has renounced fighting; who is no longer interested in being higher, is no longer interestes in performing, in proving that he is someone special. Who has melted and merged with the Ocean. Who has no idea of "I". The disappearance of "I" is innocence.
To choose this card - u r past the point of no return now and gravity is doing its work. Go with it - it represents liberation.

Soul - very timely. After I did shoonya - emptiness and now ok wit vege food for lunch and now I m meeting Sadhguru for the bridge burning.

4. What is needed for resolution
Ordinariness
Whenever, whatever situations, u become one, a peace, a happiness, a bliss surrounds u. There is no need to wait for these moments - these moments can become ur natural life.
Jus taking things easily and simply, one step at a time.

Soul - I tot of Shoonya and my feeling of being One with Source. I felt joy and completeness. I will now do it during office hour.

5. The resolution.
Adventure. Truth is radical, personal realisation. U have to come to it. Insecuritu is the only way to grow, to face danger is the only way to grow, to accept the challenge of the unknown is the only way to grow.
Walk like a child, full of trust, out of darkness of the forest into the rainbow of light, we go step by step, drawn by our sense of wonder into the unknown.