Thursday, August 27, 2009

Which yoga path am I supposed to be in?

Sadhguru
Bhakti - full of emotion and love, thinks anything else is just a waste of time. Just love God and it will happen.

Gnana - intellectual, thinking person has complete disdain for everybody else.

Karma - action - thinks everybody is lazy and that they have all kinds of fancy philosophies; what needs to be done is work. One must work and work.

Kriya - energy - just laughs at everything. The whole existence is energy. If u don't transform ur energy, whether u long for God or u long for anything, nothing is going to happen.

Soul - when I was back in Msia, I used to think that it was normal to laugh during meditation until my good friend told me it is not. It is a grace that m laughing and everyone is envious of me. In BSP, there were also some laughter. But in shoonya (140 person) no one is laughing n these are old timers.
I was telling Leslie perhaps something is wrong with me. Why I have so much issue and need so much release.
Especially now in Shoonya, tears start to fell again. Of course, laughter is also more.

I have been asking why so much tears? I tot I have released all during Shambavi. Even yday in Teethakoon, I was also crying. I was also wondering abt my issue in volunteering - action. I have always don't like to work menial tasks. I even told my parents I don't want to do housework and instead I will work using my brain and find money to hire maid cos I don't believe m meant to work.
And now here, everyone seems to hav to work. Perhaps there is more Karma and Bhakti yoga here.

Anyway, I always tot m Gnana yoga but I wasn't able to reach anywhere and now suddenly reading this page Kriya yoga laughs at everything - which is so me. So, I don't have to beat myself up for not having prayerful devotion (bhakti) and for not wanting to volunteer action (karma).
I am a mixture of Kriya and Gnana and of late more of Kriya.

Now I see. The last card on Osho - Authenticity. The path does not matter as long as the Seeker is authentic and sincere, u will reach the Goal.

Some path is hard, some path is light n green. It doesn't matter. Even if u follow the wrong Guru, also doesn't matter.

Am so glad. I am at ease now. Jus be who I am, the Laughing Kriya. Even if my steps are not ok, doesn't matter cos I am sincere.

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