Only you can choose the Shadow or God!

Father, I look back d past 1 year. It was a black period of suffering and with Your Guide, I preserve and now in a good place.
I also remember, things r much better now n jus appreciate the Now instead of hoping things be better.
Let me savour now
Earlier was looking at Krishnamurti, but I found it too intellectual and I jus want to be joyous. Suddenly, another Abraham books came up, a book I bought in Feb 08, which I didn't read much cos it looks so new. I will read that. Amen.

Mornin
This mornin woke up at 5.45 on alarm. Shut it off cos haven't sleep enough as yday nite has bit of difficulty to sleep. Then I doze n tot I sleep for an hour before the walk in the park. Then shadow said one hour is not enough, maybe need not go the park. Then I said park must go n we sleep now. Then after 15 min stil cannot sleep, I tot what the point of sleepin now, I can sleep more in the afternoon.
So wit that woke up 6.06 n did my meditation. It was ok and when I am nearly done, it start to rain and I tot well, jus do epileptical and listen to Way of Heart instead. In the opening, Jesus asked who is in charge of me, Christ or Fear. For me to listen to the Way of Heart, Christ has overcome Fear.

Way of Heart - no. 9
The shadow has no effect. That little shadow u were given power to. It seems to be able to obstruct the Truth within u. The moment u give the little shadow power, fear arise - a contraction of love and make u smaller than the grass n struck off ur recognition of the love of Sun.

When u struggle to do the Truth, u resist. If ur decision is to believe ur shadow is not above Christ. Look upon ur shadow a little moment, it will come to make u feel small.
Rise and go forth without fear n u will accomplish whatever Creativity resides in u.

Many forms of shadows
1. Siblings n parents to please
2. Children and husband to come first
3. There are bills to pay
4. There are desires to given
5. There are people who must be judged.

Love does not spin and get nowhere. Love give u the power to choose, the power to channel love, the power to know something exists within u.

Fear doesn't create anything remotely like that

So ask urself what u want?
I want my experience, my consciousness living and absorbing the flow of Universe. Give the body to God cos God knows how to use it. You don't.
When u r in that place, Heaven and Earth will move for u. This is the choice.

When u r dancing with Shadow. Are u going to led Shadow lead or are u going to lead?
Only with devotion to Christ, perfection will be reflected to u. For perfection is single mindedness. There would no longer be any conflicting commitment in ur beingness. Once u r in that place, u will know what it feels to be Christ.

What abt the initiation - crucifixion? Hell is nothing more than the process of crucifying oneself, destroying what God has created.
Stop wasting so much energy of trying to love another. Please refrain from getting anyone that u love them. Give up the pattern of beliefs which u hav attempted to crucify urself. Learn to love urself, so ur words and actions always uplift another. U r like a breathe of fresh air.

As long as there is conflicting activities, u cannot love thyself, u never experience freedom.

So many layers - u r busy working Christ. Nothing will be unacceptable to u. It doesn't mean u condone. But it meant u can no longer judge.
Judgement is the opposite of forgiveness. Judgement is on the side of Fear. And only Love can heal this world.

God cannot take ur freedom to choose Christ or Fear. Only u can do that.

When u r confronted with the Truth. Everything u have substituted will be destroyed.

There is no one is this room and there shall not be anyone who hears these words. God will show u the way that is truth always and set u free. But only u can make the whole decision to make that journey. All that it requires is this much willingness.

Jesus knows the way Home cos He has completed the Journey

What if u r actually committed? Return to the innocence of a child.

Miracle, Joy, Creativity - ur ordinary being once u have completed the Journey.
One little shadow - is all that seems to prevent of coming Home to where I Am. If u still want to delay, is ok.

Learn to love urself. I, my Father are One. So be IT. That Light deserves to shine.

What u experience will reveal to u what choice u make?

Evening
Today ego was working overtime. Can't say I look forward to it n perhaps I projected it to the rest. But they acknowledge n most are on leave.

Father, guide me.
Jus now I was feeling fearful n tot I can't do what CEO asked. Then I recalled, is ok, I won't die. So what if cannot meet margin, so be it. My main role is to be a gatekeeper, to report truth and not to ensure numbers are met.