Tuesday, January 12, 2010

How does the ego treat the Present?

Jan 12
Father, yday episode wit CEO. Real scary. I was torn between doin what's right and making her angry. In d end, I told her I think abt it so to give her face n luckily she came back and said forget it. I was sharing this wit PA. She said its good I say no cos it won't be the last time. Father, her karma of balancing money. GM said that CEO won't change n she is considering change but then I heard these many times. Ego said I mus hav CEO cos only she can give me part time but nope cos CFO also says he wants me.

Mmm, no reply fr d guy. Of cos ego gave me a nudge which I ignore. And osho cards also the same

A new earth
Ego will treat the present moment;
1. Means to an end (at best)
2. As an obstacle
3. As an enemy (at worst)

When this pattern becomes more pronounced, and this is very common, the present moment is regarded and treated as if it were an obstacle to overcome. This is where impatience, frustation and stress arise, and in our culture, it is many people's everyday reality, their normal state.
Life, which is now, is seen as a "problem" and u come to inhabit a world of problems that all need to be solved before u can be happy, fulfilled or really living - or so u think.
The problem is; For every problem that is solved, another one pops up. As long as the present moment is seen as an obstacle, there can be no ends to problem.
External reality, which always reflects back to u as ur inner state, is then experienced.
A vital question to ask urself frequenty is "What is my relationship with the present moment?
Ask urself often until u don't need it anymore.

Soul - it used to be obstacle, now its a mix of means to an end and at times obstacle.

A new earth
Life is Now. Your entire life unfolds in this constant Now. Even past or future moments only exist when you remember or anticipate them and you do so by thinking about them in the only moment there is; this one.

Instead of adding time to urself, remove time by not having tots of future or past. Be willing to live in alignment with this moment.
When u react against the form that Life takes at this moment, when you treat Now as a means, an obstacle, or an enemy, you strengthen your own form identity, the ego.

What is reactivity? Become addicted to reaction, the more reactive you are, the more entangled you become with form. The more identified with form, the stronger the ego. Your Being then does not shine through form anymore - or only barely.

Soul _yday meeting wit client. CEO looks real ugly, uncomfortable, edgy. How to attract biz wit such chi? Of cos tot, she really expired. Ego says don't say that cos if she goes, u won't have part time. My reply, I already have part time.

A new earth
Resistance makes the world and the things appear more real, more solid and more lasting than they are, including ur form identity, the ego. It endows the world and the ego with a heaviness and an absolute importance that makes u take urself and the world very seriously.
The play of form is then misperceived as a struggle for survival, and when that is your perception, it becomes ur reality.
Everything is fleeting. Things, bodies and egos, events, situations, thoughts, emotions, desires, ambitions, fears, drama ... they come, pretend to be all-important, and before u know it, they are gone, dissolved into the no-thingness out of which they came. Were they ever real? Were they ever more than a dream, the dream of form
Soul - exactly like what Krishna said to Arjuna in Bhagavad Git.

A new earth
There is the dream and there is the dreamer of the dream. The dream is a short-lived play of forms. It is the world - relatively real but not absolutely real. Then there is the dreamer, the absolute reality in which the forms come and go.
The dreamer is not the person. The person is part of the dream.
The dreamer is the substratum in which the dream appears, that which makes the dream possible.
It is the absolute behind the relative, the timeless behind time, the consciousness in and behind form.
The dreamer is conscious of itself - who you are.

To awaken within the dream is our purpose now. When u r awake within the dream, the ego-created earthdrama comes to an end and a more benign and wondrous dream arises. This is the new earth.

Soul - this take is different. Krishna said know that is a dream, play it to the max and know u won't be impacted.

Afternoon
M glad d CEO turns around n go for the right thing to do. She also didn't penalise me for saying No. Our rship is back to normal.

Ego says do part time, but no achievement. I replied it doesn't matter, if its meant to be, I will. If not, it jus become a real partial retirement, I can join P's golden gals or I can jus laze around.

A new earth
In each person's life there comes a time when he or she pursues growth and expansion on the level of form. This is when u strive to overcome limitation and thru creative action bring something new into this world that is life-enhancing for urself as well as others.
When u r present, when ur attention is fully in the Now, that Presence will flow into and transform what u do. There will be quality and power in it.
You are present when what u r doing is not primarily a means to an end (money, prestige, winning) but fulfilling in itself, when there is joy and aliveness in what u do.
And of course, u cannot be present unless u become friendly with the present moment. This is the basis for effective action, uncontaminated by negativity.

Soul - my website, can see C and V not really into. But surprisingly m fine. It is my dream, not theirs. I will do it. If cannot do website, I can also expand my blog.

A new earth
The joy of Being, which is the only true happiness, cannot come to u through any form, possession, achievement, person or event - through anything that happens.
They joy cannot come to you - ever.
The joy emanates from the formless dimension within you, from consciousness itself and this is one with who you are.

The ego is always on guard against any kind of perceived diminishment. Automatic ego-repair mechanisms come into effect the restore the mental form of "me".
The mechanisms are self-justification, defense or planning.
Whether the other person is right or wrong is irrelevant to the ego. It is much more interested in self-preservation than in the truth.

A powerful spiritual practice is consciously to allow the diminishment of ego when it happens without attempting to restore it.
When u r seemingly diminished in some way and remain in absolute nonreaction, not just externally but also internally. You realised that nothing real has been diminished, that through becoming "less", you become more.
When u no longer defend or attempt to strengthen the form of yourself, you step out of identification wit form, with mental self-image.
Thru becoming "less", you are infact undergo an expansion and make room for Being to come forward.
True power, who you are beyond form, can then shine through the apparently weakened form.

The spiritual truth is diametrically opposed to the values of our contemporary culture and the way it conditions people to behave.

There is something within you that has an affinity with space; that is why you can be aware of it. Something within u resonates with it as if in recognition.
You then sense the vast depth of space as ur own depth and u know that precious stillness that has no form to be more deeply who you are than any of the things that make up the content of ur life.

Soul - m always aware of silent energy. Does time means I already :)

A new earth
The twofold reality of the universe, which consist of things and space - thingness and no-thingness - form and denial of form - is also ur own.

A sane, balanced and fruitful human life is a dance between the two dimension that make up reality; form and space.

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