A new earth - ego

Dec 31
A new earth
Underneath the surface appearance, everything is not only connected with everything else, but also with the Source of all life out of which it came. Even a stone, and more easily a flower or a bird, could show you the way back to God, to the Source, to yourself. It essence silently communicates itself to u and reflects ur own essence back to u.

Soul - exactly. When I was in BSP, I grudgingly look at a little flower and without me realising, it brought me back and I was dancing wit It. Amazing experience.

A new Earth
The quicker u are in attaching verbal or mental labels to things, people or situations, the more shallow and lifeless your reality becomes, and the more deadened you become to reality, the miracle of life that continuously unfolds within and around you.
In this way, cleverness may be gained but wisdom is lost, and so are joy, love, creativity and aliveness.

Soul - very true. My life this past 1 and half year is really amazing n everything is such a miracle to behold.

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Thinking without awareness is the main dilemma of human existence. Our mind is incessantly active, otherwise known as compulsive thinking.

Soul - yeap. I hav now 50 percent of time reached d state where my tots r slowed down that allow me to exercise my Free Will.

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Egoic mind consist of content and structure.

Content
When we identify wit something, I "make it the same". The same as what? The same as "I". I endow it wit a sense of self and so it becomes part of my "identity".
The something - car, house, partner, career, n etc.
I try to find myself in things but never quite make it and end up losing myself in them.
That is the fate of ego.

What u identify with is all to do wit content; whereas, the unconscious compulsion to identify is structural.
The joy of Being. You can only feel it when you get out of your head. Being must be felt. It can't be thought. The ego doesn't know about it because thought is what it consist of.

Soul - I feel my Being everytime I close my eyes. No matter how things are, nothing matter, I just felt joyful.

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Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness.
How do you know this is the experience you need?
Because this is the experience you are having at this moment.

Soul - truly believe in it. For the first 3 mths when I joined this company. I was sad that God put me thru this and now everything is in place and I am so thankful for being in d company.

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The ego isn't wrong; it's just unconscious. When u observed the ego in yourself, you are beginning to go beyond it.
Don't take ego too seriously. When u detect egoic behaviour in yourself, smile. At times, you may even laugh.
How could humanity have been taken in by this for so long?

Soul - tell me abt it. At times during meditation, I wld be crying with sadness/loss/unloved and then suddenly it stop n followed thru wit laughter and my ego wld wonder, why laughter?
At times, I would cry, why I was under illusion for so long. If only the rest of the world can wake up like me, no more suffering.

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Above all know that the ego isn't personal. It isn't who you are.
If you consider the ego to be your personal problem, that's just more ego.

Soul - this is interesting. I hav been defending ego n tot its me. Now Ekhart is saying it is not me. Tell me more.

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Renunciation of all possessions will not automatically free u of the ego. It will attempt to ensure its survival by finding something else to identify with, for eg., a mental image of urself as someone who has transcended all interest in material possessions and is therefore superior, is more spiritual than others.
It ultimately doesn't mind what it identifies with as long as it has an identity.
The content of the ego may change; the mind structure that keeps it alive does not.

Soul - yeap, truly no principle. One moment, it will tell me its wrong, impossible n etc and when alas I asserted my Will, it will then change side n even enlarge on my proposition.

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Making urself right and others wrong is one the principal egoic mind patterns.
The ego lives thru comparison. How u r seen by others turns into how u see yourself.

Soul - true. These days, my Will is to be Happy. So, m more inclined to change my mind, if needed.

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The ego tend to equate having with Being; I have, therefore I am. The more I have, the more I am.
The ego lives through comparison.
The ego's sense of self-worth is in most cases bound up with the worth you have seen in the eyes of others.
You need others to give u a sense of self and if u live in a culture that to a large extent equates self-worth with how much and what you have, if you cannot look through this collective delusion, you will be condemned to chasing after things for the rest of ur life in the vain hope of finding ur worth and completion of ur sense of self there.

Soul - I know m not into materials, but m into my self-performance at work. But I do hav an issue of havin a partner, something that I do dread. But, things r changing. Anything is possible now.


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How do u let go of attachment to things? Don't even try.
Attachment to things drops away by itself when u no longer seek to find yourself in them.
In the meantime, jus be aware of ur attachment.
Sometimes u may not know u r attached to something, until u lose it.

Soul - I m attached to me transforming myself. I know m miffed whenever PA claimed that she helped me to embark or whenever anyone claim to be my teacher.
I guess I am attached to me being my own Guru. Actually, also not. I do recognise Sadhguru, Carl Jung, Benjamin Franklin, ACIM n Pearly.
Or is it becos I cannot std if it is not d truth.

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If u r aware that u r identified with a thing, the identification is no longer total.
"I am the awareness that is aware that there is attachment".
That's the beginning of the transformation of consciousness.

Soul - when I become aware that I am attached to my performance at work. That's was a start whereby m less stress n no longer bothered if I m not meeting regional deadline, asking for extension if required, telling my boss and staff that I can't cope n etc.
And then meditation found me, and it got easier n things r now fine.

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Ego; I don't have enough yet = I am not enough yet.
The ego wants to want more than it wants to have. And so the shallow satisfaction of having is always replaced by more wanting.

Soul - yeap, but these days, m more conscious. So, when it says it wants more, I will say nope.

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When u r in touch wit ur inner bodyn u r not idenfitied with form but moving away from form-identification towards formlessness, which we may also call Being. It is ur essence identity.
Body awareness not only anchors u in the present moment, it is a doorway out of the prison that is the ego. It also strengthens the immune system and the body's ability to heal.

Soul - I feel my essence when I close my eyes. M happy to know that it heal my body too.

Mom said m either in yoga or reading.
Jus now when my 2nd sis said that its amazing that I can preserve n do yoga. I counter n said that its becos I hav joyful experience during meditation. I said its those meditators that preserve despite not havin experience that is amazing. I asked her why she still preservere when she also hav no experience, she said its becos things will turn out well when she continue to do aum chanting; similar to our Wishing tree. So, I understand. For me, I never considered d Wishing tree, I meditate not due to expectation. I meditate to destressed n keep myself fine and to be happy.

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More fundamental than the external forms - things and bodies - are the thought forms that continuously arise in the field of consciousness.
They are energy formations, finer and less dense than physical matter, but they are forms nevertheless.
When every tot absorbs ur attention completely, when u r identified with the voice in ur head and the emotions that accompany it that u lose urself, then u r totally identified wit form and there in the grip of ego.

Soul - I have long ago take myself seriously. In 2008, my frustation was d never endin tot n in d end wit meditation, the flow sometime stop during meditation and now the flow slow down during awakeness.

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When u yield internally, when u surrender, a new dimension of consciousness opens up.
If action is possible or necessary, your action will be in alignment with the whole and supported by creative intelligence, the unconditioned consciousness which in a state of inner openness you become one with.
Circumstances and people then become helpful, cooperative. Coincidences happen.
If no action is possible, u rest in d peace and inner stillness that come wit surrender. You rest in God.

Soul - true. Things r turning around to accomodate and support me.