Pain-bodies / karma

Jan 7
Father, yday meditation. I was laughing so much. For a moment, I worried abt my brother saying I cld be overdosed when I go to Samyama. But I dismissed it cos I trust Sadhguru.

I jus realised yday, that my slight apprehension on CEO is from d PA. I m glad she be gone soon.

Also, I noted d CEO immediately jump on the partial restoration, claiming credit. She said to tell mgm that it was us who asked it back and not Regional. Infact at first she want to said it was her but changed to us. To me, it was Regional who granted. Now I can see d resemblance between CEO and PA.

Yday PA shared abt coconut oil for npse block. I recalled Sadhguru mention something similar n I wanted that. PA then said she plan to pour into small bottle to sell. The big bottle is only 48 n like that also want to sell. Can't she give. Like I buy her dessert d other day also 12 n she didn't even pay me back, especially since she was d one who asked for it. So money minded.
Then I tot, well, perhaps I m d one that is too little and she is ok.
So, at least be glad that she will take any opp to sell. Hey, that sounds like CEO too.
They r real mirror to each other n both not acknowledging it.

On ego havin opposite. Yday was excited n told CEO abt partial restoration n later at nite ego said I shldnt tell. I be in trouble. Yes n no also him. My mind, really no principle. No wonder lasted 9.5 years until I take steps to break it. Win for PA cos have money. Win for CEO cos have peace. Win for me cos have peace too.

Whereas d state of Being has no opposite. No matter if I m down or up, I always emit laughter. That I know.

A new earth
Let go of your, "me and my story" and return to the only place of power; the present moment.

The past lives in u as memories, but memories in themselves are not a problem. In fact thru memory, we learn from d past and from past mistakes. It is only when memories or tots of the past, take u over completely that they turn into a burden, turn problematic and become part of ur sense of self.
We can learn not to keep situations or events alive in our minds (whether happen yesterday or 30 years ago), but to return our attention continuously to the pristien, timeless present moment, rather than be caught up in mental movie-making.
Our very Presence then becomes our identity, rather than our tots and emotions.

Any negative emotion that is not fully faced and seen for what it is in the moment it arises does not completely dissolve. It leaves behind a remnant of pain.

Children in particular find strong negative emotions too overwhelming to cope with and tend to try to not to feel them. Unfortunately, that early defense mechanism usually remains in place when the child becomes an adult.
People wit heavy pain-bodies usually have a better chance to awaken spirtually than those withj a relativelu light one.
These r the one who cannot live with their unhappiness any longer and so their motivation to awaken becomes strong.

Like all life form, the pain-bodies periodically needs to be feed - to take in new energy - the food it requires to replenish itself consist of energy that is compatible wit its own, which is to say, energy that vibrates at a similar frequency.
That's why it thrives on negative thinking as well as drama in relationships. The pain-body is in addition to unhappiness.

Soul - CEO feeds on PA and vice versa. No wonder after so many years, d issue escalates rather than go down.
So, my tot was correct. I see as PA not good for CEO as she aggravates CEO wit her mood. Whereas my staff would be calmer n better effect on CEO, at least no aggravation.


A new earth
It may be shocking when u realise for d first time that there is something within u that periodically seeks emotional negativity, seeks unhappiness.

You need even more awareness to see it in yourself than to recognise it in another person.
Once the unhappiness has taken u over, not only u do not want an end to it, but u want others just as miserable as u are in order to feed on their negative emotional reaction.

Soul
Ironically last monday I was askin this question and now answer came. I can now understand CEO's explosive reaction on no electricity. Something so impersonal can be taken personally.
What abt mine?

A new earth
Pain-bodies
Thru their reactivity, relatively insignificant matters are blown up out of all proportion as they try to pull other people into their drama by getting them to react.
Unaware of the pain, they carry inside, by their reaction, they project the pain into events and situations.
Usually they end up creating enemies within their own organisation, because wherever they go, they find reasons for feeling bad, so their pain-body continues to find exactly what it is looking for.

Soul - My CEO and PA has real dense pain-body.
When I read this a year back. Knew CEO pain body but somehow I forgot.

A new earth
T'ai chi - movement meditation that stills the mind.

Pain-body in children
Can manifest as weeping fits or temper tantrums. The child screams, may throw himself on the floor or become destructive. Thwarted wanting can easily trigger pain-body, and in a developing ego, the force of wanting can be intense.
While the child is having a pain-body attack, there isn't much u can do except to stay present so that u r not drawn into an emotional reaction. The child's pain-body would only feed on it. Pain-bodies can be extremely dramatic. Don't buy into the drama. Don't take it too seriously. If the pain-body was triggered by thwarted wanting, don't give in now to its demands. Otherwise, the child will learn;"The more unhappy I become, the more likely I am to get what I want.".
This is a recipe for dysfunction in later life.
The pain body will be frustated by non-reaction and may briefly act up even more before it subsides. Fortunately, pain-body episodes in children are usually more short-lived.
A little while after it has subsided, or perhaps the next day, u can talk to the child.
What came over u yday when u woudlnt stop screaming?
Do you remember?
What did if feel like?
Was it a good feelinng!
Can u paint a picture of what it would look like?
What happened to it when it went away
Do u think it may come back.
The above is to awaken the witnessing faculty in the child, which is d Presence.
Let ur attitude be one of interest or curiosity rather than one of critricism or condemnation.

Soul - my nephew. I am on d right track.

Evenin
I reach home and looked at my nephew wit a new light. I will help him wit this pain body. Among my family, my nephew has the heavies.