Unconsciousness is the Director

Jan 6
Father, m feelin better now that I know what is my website for. Also, I guess I m feeling secured wit my part time job that will give me d income. So, there is no shortage in inflow. The salary deduction only affect the payout for loans.

Thanks for everything. And once my Q n A website is more established, I will approach d newspaper.

Now I understand my Osho transformation card - I m not alone n need not have my own agenda. Things happen when they are needed to happen; things are bound to happen when they are needed to happen. All goes well - just trust.
Succes is equal to you-plus-God.
(Yeap, I was havin pte agenda that I now released. Jus do what I wan to, forget abt achievement)

Hell and heaven are within.
Whenever u r conscious, whenever u act wit full awareness, u r in heaven.
Whatsoever u do, if u r not aware of what u r doing, the gate of hell open.
(Yeap, once I know m off cos not sure if can achieve, I start to release n d restlessness is gone. I feel relaxed)

Negative situations, u cannot jus escape. They are the very situation in which life has to integrate and grow. They r challenges of life. Accept them. They r blessings in disguise.
Don't think of anything as a curse or a blessing. Don't interpret it and suddenly u will see that everything is beautiful
(Soul - I was feeling apprehensive abt reportings again. Wan to run. Reading this make me stop to face it. M better now. Besides it wil help me in my Q n A. Very few people can strategise to escape like I did. So, advice wld be to face in d best way, which may be easier to them. Perhaps difficult to me ;)

Your mind goes on playing infinitely - the whole thing is just like a dream in an empty room. Your mind is just frolicking, jus like children. Just a play. Don't be serious abt them, both bad and good. Even if its a great tot and u wan to serve humanity and transform the whole world and u wan to bring heaven to earth.
(Soul - Once I saw this, I realised I need not pressure myself to achieve my Passion. I jus do what I can n wan to do and relax, which is d whole purpose of me doing part time, jus to relax, be at ease n do something that I enjoy. I was sidetracked. But m back now)

A new earth
The greater part of most people thinking is involuntary, automatic and repetitive. It is no more than a kind of mental static and fulfills no purpose.
Strictly speaking, u don't think but thinking happens to u.

The statement, "I think" implies volition. It implies that u hav a say in the matter and that there is a choice involved on ur part. For most people, this is not yet the case.
"I think" is as false as "I digest" or "I circulate my blood". All these happens without ur particpation.

The voice in the head has a life of its own. Most people are at the mercy of that voice; they are possessed by thought, by the mind.
And since d mind is conditioned by the past, u r forced to reenact the past again and again.
The Eastern term for this is karma. When u r identified wit that voice in ur head, u r possessed by it.

Through complete identification with the mind, a false sense of self - the ego - came into existence.
The density of the ego depends on the degree to which you - the consciousness - are identified wit ur mind, with thinking.
Thinking is no more than a tiny aspect of the totality of consciousness, the totality of who u are.

Soul - .mmm, coincidentally reading d same topic for both A new earth and osho.
Ever since I do meditation, I know there is another part of me, apart fr thinkin. I can observe my tot comin in without my participation. I m getting to realised I am apart frm my tot.
Also, d meditation bliss and laughter and impossible asanas, somethin without my participation also made me aware that apart from tots, there is Energy in me.

A new earth
The degree of identification wit the mind differs from person to person. Some people enjoys period of freedom from it, however brief, and the peace, joy and aliveness they experience in those moments make life worth living.
These are also the moments when creativity, love and compassion aries.

(Soul - that's what m experiencing during meditation. No tots, jus me n Light n silence and laugher).

A new earth
Most people are constantly trapped in the egoic state.
They are alienated from themselves, as well as from others and the world around them.
They are absorbed by thinking, either past or future and not in the present.
Total alienation results in "phony" interaction/behaviours.
Alienation means you don't feel at ease in any situation, any place aor with any person, not even yourself.
You are always trying to get "home" but never feel at home.
To see one's predicament clearly is a first step toward going beyond it.
Soul - pix getting clearer. Thank u.

afternoon
I asked for a bag. I got one, albeit a clutch evenin bag. But it is Mulberry. Amazing, on my own I wouldn't buy branded bags, and now I hav 2 branded bags given by boss.

A new earth
In addition to the movement of tot, although not entirely separate from it, there is another dimension to the ego ; emotion.
Thinkin n emotion turn into ego only when u identify wit them and they take u over completely, that is to say, when they become "I".

Emotion is the body's reaction to ur mind.
Emotion can also be a response to an actual event or situation, but it will be a response seen thru the filter of mental interpretation.

Although the body is very intelligent, it cannot tell the difference between an actual situation and a thought. It reacts to every tot as if it were a reality.

The ego is not only the unobserved mind, the voice in the head pretending to be you, but also the unobserved emotions that are the body's reaction to what the voice in the head is saying.

A reaction happens when the mind did not hav the time to voice the tot, but body already responded. Reaction is due to unconscious assumption. "Nobody respects and appreciates me, I need to fight to survive" "I don't deserve abundance". "I don't deserve love".
Unconscious assumption create emotions in the body which in turns generate mind activity and/or instant reaction.

Soul - this is what differentiate feeler n thinker, d unconscious assumption. Cos, our mind wld generally activate in d same space, but d unconscious serve as a fueler.
Then by right, I shld guide Feeler instead of Thinker. I guess that's why Thinker easier to guide cos they may not have many unconscious assumption.
For me, whatever I had, I already dig out years ago cos I cannot allowed unconsciousness to dictate my life. I am in charge.

Negative emotions is toxic and harm ur body harmonious functioning.
Positive emotion can be ego-generated or deeper emotion that emanates from ur natural state of connectedness wit Being.
Positive emotions generated by the ego already contain within themselves their opposite into which they can quickly turn to.
Eg anticipation abt future turn into letdown/disappointment.

The deeper emotion are not really emotions at all but state of Being.
Emotions exist within the realm of opposites.
State of Being can be obscured, but they have no opposite.
They emanate from within u as the love, joy and peace that are aspect of ur true nature.

Soul - amen.
Soul - yday when mom cooked veg for me. I felt the love, now that I know she showed her love in service mode.