Third chakra - solar plexus (auto immune)

Jan 17
Father, m not sure. But a few mths back, I tot of buying Louis Hay's book on illness cos wan to use it to help people.
I wan to help myself.
When I was doing meditation, tot of specialising in autoimmune disease. Autoimmune is a form of self-defense. For it to be over-acted means, I used it a lot. For me, my self control used on myself n environment. I used it a lot.
Last week was stressful n these 2 days, my RA swelled but m ok.
Let me work on my RA. There mus be a key. Many many people has it, let me unlock d key.


Jan 18
Today meditation, I can't seem to connect. Tot of korean drama came in. Guess shldnt sleep immediately. Jus realised, when ur self esteem is low, u think u not lovable, even if u r, u will reject it. Wonder if it applies to me.
Today RA subsides a bit.
Its been 2 weeks since vege, another 4 weeks to go.
But suria namaskara is good, I like the hatha yoga. Yea, what was previously not possible is possible now. Last sunday, brisk walk, I watched my breathe n it is smoother. I applied what I learned in suria namaskara.

Intuitive welness.
Acid reflux.
The emotional intelligence demonstrates an emotionally reactive nature, even if the emotions are not expressed outwardly. More often than not, this condition results from a lack of connection between the emotional self and physical body.

3rd chakra - solar plexus
Often, a strong emotional energy in 3rd chakra due that says, "I am invicible" can result in behaviour that says "I can eat anything; I can put up with anything or anyone". A tot form such as "I wil not be denied" has the same effect.
Cell typically shows the emotions of worry, overwhelmed, frustation or repressed anger.
U will often find anger that specifically stems from feelings of injustice and disappointment within the cell membrane of the stomach.
"I can't take this anymore" is a common cry that began long before the condition surfaced.

The spiritual intelligence is abt learning to keep things in balance and perspective, continuing to self-inspire and self- motivate.
The shadow teachers of this condition are feelings of overwhelmed and acting out with overeating, overwork or any other "overage".
Learn to honour and respect urself is the spiritual gift.
As u honour and respect urself, u will gain spiritual clarity and understand ur destiny.
No longer will u push yourself, ur body or anyone else.

This respect is born from an understanding that life does change and that all u can do is listen deeply to ur rhythm and follow the beat of ur own drum.
You will no longer try to conform to others' schedules or make them conform to yours. Simply listen and do ur best.
Patience is essential as u learn to let go of things or people whom u cannot control.

Not stuffing down ur emotion is also an important spiritual and energetic metaphor.
As u begin to listen to the physical, reactive anger of ur stomach and become more careful abt what u put into ur body, u will also begin to care more about the physical and emotional environment in which u place urself.

Self satisfaction will begin to arise from taking these small, inwardly directed steps. What is eliminated is the previously pressure-filled mind ruled by the tendencies of perfectionism, anger and fear.

This condition teached u tat u may not be in control, but u always have a choice about how u respond and care for urself. U learn to honor ur dreams and goals.
And by listening deep within to ur wisdom, u know ur true destiny.
Consequently, u begin to walk along with life, not chase it down like a wild steer.
Nor do u run away from all that is yours.

Soul - this is me. Also read that 70 percent of immune system is in this 3rd chakra. The imbalance causes my RA.
True, in career, I chase n excel, can handle anything and anyone thrown to me. Until I finally admit I can't take all.
As for my destiny, I ran away from it.
But now m willing and able to let go of my control and I have meditation to stabilise me.
Balancing slogan
I love and respect my body
I move easily with the changes in my life
I honor my personal vision
I am kind to myself
I am calm
I feel supported.
Breathing deeply into my body, I calmly remember my destiny and know that all is well.

Arthritis
The emotion that is usually found within arthritis is a deep internal tension constructed from fear, inflexibility and uncertainty.
Fear of moving forward, the inability to release old hurts that have turned inward, and confusion about the direction of a person's life can be found in the heat and chemical imbalances of the joints and surrounding tissues.

The spiritual intelligence is to have freedom of movement, freedom to be oneself spiritually, and freedom to creatively express one's self are the core teaching.

You look at the attachment to beliefs and issues that currently hold or have held u back from ur dreams and goals. You need to ask what ideas, values, things and situations are worth holding onto. Only u can decide as u reach deep inside ur bones and find out what moves u and how u r to express ur dynamic spirit

Balancing slogan
I live in a state of joy
I am open to life
I freely express my creative spirit
I feel joy in my bones
No matter what, I love my life
As I breathe in, energy spinals around my joings and bones, allowing me to be healed, open and free.

Afternoon
Father, yeap, today felt little joy during meditation. Found myself less connected to Universe. Guess d period of celebration is over. Last weekend, RA and my cough put me in perspectives.
I wonder where my joy gone. What's next.
Osho card
1. Question
Gratefulness
Winter and summer are both needed for growth. Once this idea settles in the heart, then each moment of life is of gratitude.
Accept life as it is. Accepting it, desires disappear.
One becomes a buddha, the moment one accepts all that life brings, with gratitude.

Soul - yea, now is d period of calm. I realised that whenever d period is calm, ego is restless, asking what's next? Always rushing.
Well, learning abt my solar plexus, I will ignore its rushing mode into future. Jus be.

2. External influence
Renewal
When there is no past, when there is no future, only then is there peace. Future means aspiration, achievement, goal, ambition, desire. You cannot be here now, u r always rushing for something, somewhere else.
The past is not, the future is not, only the present is. To be in the present is to be alive, optimum - and that is renewal.

3. Seed of transformation that may not be aware
Gates of Heaven - heaven and hell are not geographical, they are psychological.
Heaven and hell are within u. The doors are close to each other. With jus a change of mind, ur being is transformed.
Whenever u act unconsciously, without awareness, u r in hell; whenever u r conscious, whenever u act wit full awareness, u r in heaven.

Soul - my ego is saying what's next. Is this all that u hav got to show? You r not something? Where is ur calling??? Why u not doing anything??
Soul - it is never enough for ego. Everytime I conquered my fear, he will ask for more and more. Well, this time I ignore. I m slowly comin to realisation that my autoimmune is from my rushes. And I can rush becos I was disconnect from my feeling. Cos my feeling is saying no no, acid is boiling n endangering my joints. So, this is me not rushing myself. Like now, no external push but I can sense d ego internal push. Well, not this week. I be nobody as long as it help me to reduce my solar plexus activity.

4. Direction of growth
Recognition
The longing of the mind is to be extraordinary. The ego thirsts and hungers for the recognition that u r somebody. The ego cannot tolerate being nobody.
And this is the miracle, when u accept your nobodiness, when u r just an ordinary as anybody else, when u don't ask for any recognition, when u can exist as if u r not existing. To be absent in the miracle.
The experience of nobodiness is exactly the meaning of nirvana, of nothingness, of absolute undisturbed silence, with no ego, wit no personailty. There is nothing to lose. And if u think anything is lost - ur name, ur respectability, ur fame - they are worthless they r playthings for children, not for mature people. It is time for u to be mature, it is time for u to be ripe, time for u just to be.

5. Key to integration
Meditation
Whenever meditation is separate from life, something is wrong. It becomes life-negative. Then one starts thinking of going to a monastry or to himalayan caves. Then one wants to escape from life, because life seems to be a distraction from meditation.
Life is not meditation, life is an occasion for meditation.
Be careful, careful of everything. And don't make any distinction between things, that this is trivia and that is spiritual. It depends on u. Pay attention.
Spiritual is imparted by you, it is ur gift to the world. Meditative energy is alchemical. It transforms the base metal into gold. I goes on transforming the baser into the higher. At the ultimate peak, everything is divine. This very world is the paradise, and this very body the buddha.
Soul - I admit I separate. I admit I don't bring in meditative mode when I open my eyes. This is the start. I will be aware. Everything is spiritual and since my ego is on rush mode. I need to be quiet to listen to my bodyily emotion.