God is always with me. Picking me up when I am down

Jan 24
Father, this moment is all I have. Ego is saying why didn't do anything? Why stagnant? Anyway, not sure lah.

Secret of the ages
Whenever u r faced wit these questions:
Shall I do this or not?
Which of these courses shall I take?
and similar questions, remember that perhaps the biggest danger is in the procastination resulting from your indecision.
Decide, act and you have a fighting chance for success - while indecision and procastination can have no possible result but failure.

Soul - is this abt me? Remember ace of diamond, ambitious n want to start. Remember ur RA, always rushing thru life.
Never mind for now jus lay low, focus on Samyama.
Focus on freeing myself up for part time.
This few days, bit difficult on being a veg, felt left out.

This mornin I tot that I m always hurrying to 'clean up' the company i worked in so I can move on or leave. That's d real reason. Jus like m doing now.

When I was swimmin, I tot of d Nazis and what's happening to the Muslim in our country. Actually the hardcore are very few n d rest follower. While d middle ground jus stay silent, jus like d middle ground German. Is it really that bad. I know its not good. Am I also d middle ground.


Jan 24 evenin
Lookin at my Top 5 Passion. Somehow seems so far away, especially d Transformational leader n also d rest. I m not sure I can meet my Passion.
For now I only got 1 passion, to prepare for Samyama, once in a lifetime. To strategise so I can work 3 days week.
I must remember m working 3 days week not jus for my career but also for my health. I don't wan to drive myself.
A tot came, remember not to drive urself away from ur destiny.
Today, going to d hill n sitting at the open temple, such a great feel, I felt d connection immediately.

Today listening to Sadhguru's cd on who is ur right guru
1. If d guru makes u comfortable - he is not d guru for u as he is reinforcing ur limitation.
2. If d guru makes u uncomfortable - he cld be d guru for u cos he is making u break ur limitation.
3. If u guru makes u experience things beyond u, despite u not knowing why, he is definitely d guru for u.

Bhagavad Gita
O' Soul, I do not perceive any beneficial result to be gained from slaying my intimate sense habits. My mind loathes the idea of destruction of sense pleasure. I crave nothing - neither mental victory, nor the kingdom of soul happiness, nor sense pleasure!
Down wit both spiritual and sense happiness! I wan nothing. I can forgo the possession of cosmic consciousness, if, to obtain it, I have to destroy the dear sense habits wit whom I have long dwelt in the cozy home of life.

Soul - exactly how I feel these few days. I don't see my Wishing tree materialising my Passion. Life still d same. Why, after so long in meditation that i still waver? Why doing vegetarian affects me? Why I am doubting my path just becos of food now?

Bhagavad Gita
The state of negative renunciation may occur not only in meditation, but also after deep meditation - who has practising self-denial and regular meditation.
He feel distressed and bewildered, realising he has neither passing pleasures nor inner joys. Since he has neither, he pacifies his discouragement by proclaiming he wants neither. If he doesn't pull himself out of this indifference, he becomes a slothful devotee whose spiritual life will stagnate and die. But if he continue to preservere, he finds that this state is onlu a momentary vacuum in his sadhana.

Soul - thank u, so timely, before I fell into d trap of indifference. This is reaffirming Sadhguru's msg today. He is my Guru.

Bhagavad Gita
The wise devotee knows that renunciation of paltry materialistic passions is necessary to attain the neverending happiness of the Spirit.
He knows that he is not denying himself anything, but is only shifting his tastes from inferior, impermanent sense pleasures to superior, lasting soul happiness.
As one shld be glad to renounce a hundred dollars to gain five thousand dollars, so the devotee is happy to renounce a sensory pittance for the everlasting joy found in God-realisation.
The divine state of final emancipation is not a state of blank nothingness or a condition of inner extinction; it is, rather, demesne of a positive conscious sense of eternal blessed expansion.
As long as the devotee continues to make the effort, the haunting memory of that pure joy will call again and again to urge him forward on the divine path.

Father, thank U. Bhagavad is my nightly read. Amen.