Pain-body and ego are close relatives

Jan 8
I seek to understand feeler. Its true m INTP n works well with thinkers but d market is wit d Feelers. They need my help to give them objective thinking as their thinking function is swarmed wit pain bodies resulting in reactiveness.

Also, by understanding Feelers, I wld also be minimising my weakness and I wld be more symphatetic as a result of bringing in more feeling.

Yday becos of reporting stress, I was irritated at d no toilet key despite repeated reminders. I told her that m irritated n wanted to scold her. I was bit curious of my anger cos it has been awhile since i experienced anger.


A new earth
Someone wit a heavy pain-body easily finds reasons for being upset, angry, hurt, sad or fearful. Relatively insignificant things that someone else would shrug off with a smile or not even notice become apparent cause of intense unhappiness. The things are, of course, not the true cause but only act as trigger. They bring back to life the old accumulated emotion. The emotion then moves into the head and amplifies and energizes the egoic mind structures.

Pain-body and ego are close relatives. They need each other. The triggering event or situation is then interpreted and reacted to through the screen of a heavily emotional ego. Looking at present through the eyes of emotional past within u.
In other words, what u see and experience is not the event or situation but IN you. (CEO)
Or in some cases, it may be there is an event or situation, but you amplify it through your reaction. This reaction, this amplication, is what the pain-body wants and needs, what it feeds on. (PA)

When u r completely trapped in d movement of tot and the accompanying emotion, stepping outside is not possible because u don't even know that there is an outside. You are trapped in ur own movie/dream, in ur own hell.
To u it is reality and no other reality is possible. And as far as u r concerned, ur reaction is the only possible reaction.

Soul - Father, yeap I will seek understanding and knowledge on feeler. I guess New Earth is to put me to the path.
Also, I perhaps can understand as I hav been dreamin when I woke up n hence feeling tired n slight reluctance to do yoga. Luckily discipline is stronger.

A new earth
Breaking identification wit d pain-body
Person wit heavy pain-body has a energy emanation that other people perceive as extremely unpleasant. When others met them, some people wil immediately wan to remove themselves or reduce interaction wit him or her to a minimum
Others will feel a wave of aggression toward this person and they will be rude or attack him verbally or in some cases, even physically. This means there is something within them that resonates wit d other person pain-body. What they react to so strongly is also in them. It is their own pain-body.

Soul - people in my life who has high pain body -
Ex
Alice, Bee Ean

Current
CEO, SL, Max, J, Sa, PA,

Mmm, surprisingly I m ok wit all the pain-body. Whenever they react or scold me, m curious n wonder why and sometime I get angry when they r unreasonable. But I don't take their reaction personally n m fine wit them.
The only one I reacted was Alice. But that also happen when she was attacking my Identity as a good boss, my independence, trying to make me kow tow. And to my ego, work is a reflection of me, u attack my work, u attack me.
Otherwise, I m fine wit her n we do get along as long as I give in to her.

A new earth
Not surprisingly, people wit heavy and frequently active pain-bodies often find themselves in conflict situation. Sometime of cos, they actively provokes. Other times, they may not actually do anything.

It requires a high degree of Presence to avoid reacting when confronted by someone wit active pain-body.
If u r able to stay present, it sometimes happens that ur Presence enables the other person to disidentify from his or her own pain-body and thus experience the miracle of sudden awakening.

Present - no tot, not judgement and listening in stillness without any mental commentary.
Do not react, do not confirmed the reality of his/her story, not fill her mind wit more tot and her pain body wit more emotion.

Soul - I must learn this. I don't react. I don't confirm d reality but I do give them more tots. And sometimes, it is taken out of context and proportion.
Learn NOT to offer input.
Let it dissolve by itself.
Darkness disperse when Light came
Pain-body dissolve when Presence is there.

A new earth
I have allowed her to experience whatever she was experiencing at that moment and the power of allowing lies in non-interference, non-doing.
Being present is always more powerful than anything one could say or do, although sometimes being present can give rise to words or actions.
Thinking midn wil say that u r uncaring, distant, no compassion and not relating. The truth is u r relating, but at a level deeper than tot and emotion.
In the stillness of Presence, u can sense the formlessness in urself and in the other as one.
Knowing the oneness of yourself and the other is true love, true care and true companion.


Soul - oh, can give input.

Father, I used to judge feeler n think they lower level than thinkers. Alas today I will wan to learn n understand feeler. Perhaps feeler is jus thinkers wit pain-body. I cld easily have been a feeler.
For d first time, we hav a feeler in immediate family - nephew.

7thunder card
Nine of spade
Clear away unwanted and useless debris in our life. And put us back on a new course where we r much enlivened and satisfied.

Afternoon
Jus now did my confrontation wit my staff. I reprimanded her n told her to be cautious in future. She cried n I hug her. Good feeling.

The CEO, at first again claim she is not aware of d leave. I told her that I did run thru wit her. Then she relented n go thru my summary comm. She stil wan to cf to retirement. Jus realised that if she continue, her leave payout will be higher. But then she is sayin 1 mth notice, so not much difference loh.
CEO - ESFJ,

A new earth
Some pain-bodies react to only one particular kind of trigger or situation, which is usually one that resonates wit a certain kind of emotional pain suffered in the past. It can even cause a conscious person to be unconscious.

Soul - my trigger is in relationship. Jus got a note n my ego start. I stop it but can sense it buzzing. Well, now everything is possible n I m centred.

A new earth
When those triggers occur, u will immediately see them for what they are and enter a heightened state of alertness. Within a second or two, u will also notice the emotional reaction that is arising in the pain-body, but in that state of alert presence, u won't identify wit it, which means the pain-body cannot take u over and become voice in ur head.

Question frequently asked, "How long does it take to become free of the pain-body?
The anwser is, of course, that it depends both on the density of an individual pain-body as well as the degree or the intensity of that individual arising Presence.
But it is not the pain-body but identification wit d pain-body that forces u to relive the past again and again and lkeeps u in a state of unconsciousness.
Then the question become, "How long does it takes to become free of identification wit d pain-body?

Answer - "It takes no time all.

Every time u r present when the pain-body arises, some of the pain-body negative emotional energy will burn up, as it were, and become transmuted into Presence. The rest of the pain-body will quickly withdraw and wait for a better opportunity to arise again, that is to say, when u r less conscious.
The pain-body needs ur unconsciousness. It cannot tolerate the light of Presence.
The emotion is not who u are.

Jus know that the pain-body is in u.
When identification it ceases, the transmutation begins.
The knowing prevents the old emotion from rising yr into ur head and taking over not only the internal dialogue, but also interactions with other people.

Don't make it into ur problem. Accept it.
Accepting means u allow urself to feel whatever it is u r feeling at that moment.
Be ye perfect. U don't need to become whole, but be what u already are - with or without the pain-body.

Soul
Ego - here goes, another one that wil reject me. Not sure if I wan to go thru this.
Another tot, nope. We r fine. We only making friends, don't be melodramatic.