Abundance of love and money is mine to have

May 6

Today practices was lovely. Throughout the session body automatically sits on arashidharna posture. It just sat up straight.
Angarmadhana was good. Have improved most postures. Even the one feet balancing was good.
Surya Kriya was good too.
Had quick Shavasana for both Angarmadhana and Surya Kriya. Breathing meditation was lovely. Just sat automatically in arashidharna.
Shakti was okay. Lost in tot in Kapala Bhakti over food and work.
Shambavi was good. Towards the end pleasure point was activated and I had visuals of Z and I but this time I didn't follow it and instead redirect the energy towards the upper level.

After watching yesterday Esther's video I changed my affirmation towards something that I resonate. Instead of saying "I have abundance", I now said "Abundance is mine to have".

North node in Aquarius (11th house)
Their primary lesson is to transform their overactive ego into a vehicle for furthering the evolution of humankind. To rein in the ego requires a spiritual connection and strong self discipline. They simply must not allow themselves to indulge in petty, negative emotional state. Those patterns of thinking feed their egos and hurt their hearts. Others may get away with it but these natives don't. They have an over abundance of highly charged creative emotional energy and whatever they focus on expands and assumes a life of its own. They must turn their backs on tots that promote envy, arrogance and pride - it is dangerous for them to indulge in any negativity.
When things don't go their way, they tend to blame themselves or others for the outcome and become very frustrated. This is the time to stop bombardment of negative tots and remind themselves: I don't know what ought to be". That tot, summoned at key moments, stop their runaway tots.


Soul
At first I said nope. I don't have superego. Then a tot came, u took personal responsibility for work and local Isha, that's ego. U think good or bad outcome is due to u.
My Saturn in Seven of Clubs and Cosmic lesson in Seven of Spades
This is also the same Fighting card, for the week.

North node in Aquarius
Affirmation are excellent in helping them break free from negative tots.

Soul
Use to resist. But now that I know I had such affirmation but now I do.
Time to go back to Law of Attraction. Now that I know I truly enable those relationships that I don't  like, I will change it to enable what I want.

North node in Aquarius
They can also work to free themselves from ego entrapment by ceasing to judge and compare themselves. They always lose when they judge in way that's makes them superior or inferior; because it precludes any true connection not mutual support. And if they resent someone who is close to them, they do not feel good about themselves.
To avoid falling into this trap, they need to recognise when it's happening and immediately substitute other tots.
They also need to recognise that the struggle is the same for everyone. If they are able to look beyond external appearances and realise that we all share the same struggle, they will relax and feel equal with others again.

Soul
I did that especially asking and wondering about others values.
So true. Father, took me years but I can now see it