Sun in cancer - When I am not authentic, I am indirectly manipulating others' responses

May 11 aft 1

Now finally reading my Superpower report for Natal chart again. The last time I read was in 2013. Now reading it.


Cosmic Factor in water sign
A great deal of your time is spent in the world of feelings, emotions and intuitions. For the most part, your life is experienced as an ebb and flow of emotional tides and currents. You usually react strongly to the emotional atmosphere of any given situation.

Soul
No wonder I need my blog.

Cosmic Factor
If you find that you're becoming bored or depressed, you should realize that your values are misplaced, and that your sense of security is false. If you're not happy, change your status quo and embrace the unknown. When paralyzed by fears and inhibitions, breathe deeply and move slowly and deliberately towards what you want.

Soul
This affirms that volunteering is truly not for me.
I stayed so long due to fear of loss of bonding but alas resentment got in as it was done unwillingly.
It was a form of manipulation albeit indirect way.
I volunteer to retain the validation and bond and when I am not appreciated I become upset. When I forced myself to continue to perform in order to retain validation, I become resentful.
Now I understand what is meant by values
Me, have been on my notebook updating my blog for the past 3 hours and yet it is effortles..


Neptune Retrograde
FANTASY FORCE IS TURNED WITHIN (APPARENT BACKWARD MOTION)
You're a bit self-absorbed with past difficulties and anger from the past. Sometimes you sail on wave after wave of uncharted space. In order to stay focused you need an annual retreat to distill your inspiration and your creative juices. You can make daydreams real. It's your choice; you can be a channel for higher or lower spiritual forces.

Soul
Thats why I need annual retreat to Ashram.
Truly glad I am going in June.

Sun in Cancer
You're not necessarily the most direct individual. Because you prefer to withdraw from trouble, you need to watch out for passive aggression. You can get yourself into hot water without knowing it. However, your security is something you're always aware of. Usually it's a top priority. You are definitely strong and protective of your turf.

Soul
True especially in personal and romantic relationship.

sun in Cancer
You know how to please people and you want to be liked. You can become a star by swaying others with your natural charm and style. You are somewhat warm-hearted, affectionate, social and erotic. Comfort, pleasure and luxury are necessary for you to be you.

Soul
True. I need a balance between my disclipned sadhanas and also my comforts.
Hence the working day sadhanas and sabattical Sunday so I be fine.

Sun in Cancer
In the chase after what you want, you're driven, willful, energetic, assertive, competitive, dramatic and enterprising. In the pursuit of your goals, you're willing to work hard and if necessary face danger. You tend to do what you think is right and are not one to give up or give in to fear. To become a star you need to channel some of your energy into physical activity, athletics and exercise. When you're restless, you need to work out.