Unless we change, we attract the same people

May 5

Woke up feeling okay but hot. It's now humid. Below are the tots that flow in.
I got unwilling people cos I m all too willing. I take personal responsibility for what happen to local Isha.
Just as M being so hardworking and smart attracts such laziness in people.
Just as G being so motherly and spoil others and attracts such irresponsible/spoilt people who can't or won't take care of themselves.
A vicious cycle. Unless we change our surrounding won't change.

Father, what's on my love life.

Just finished my practices. Did Bhoota Shuddi followed by Guru pooja and cat stretch. Have now incorporated  cat stretch ever since I know its not just for warming up but also for opening up our Nadi and makes the practices more fruitful.

Angarmadhana is good. I improved loads. Today sitting as a child, laughing loads and start to sing. When it sang the goodbye song, I cut it and sang the "love me song", this time I can see that is also asking for love. The song "love is higher than mountain" also saying love is difficult. All the songs I sang during practices are portrayal of poverty in love. Inside me I don't seem to think I have love.

My songs denote poverty consciousness on love. My mantra should be "I have abundance of love and money".

Tot of local Isha. Because I take personal responsibility, I go extra miles. And after stretching myself continuously, wondering why others don't come in, resentment arise. The others don't take personal responsibility. That's why they are not attached to outcome. They just volunteer when they want to. Because I m attached to local Isha I put myself out personally.
Just like in corporate career, where I used to take personal responsibility for negative happenings at the office. I no longer took personal responsibility when I remind myself that I m just finance head not the managing director. Many business issue not under my control.
Just like local Isha I tot I can't back out. Key point is I took personal responsibility instead of group responsibility. Hence I felt the burden whereas others don't. When something drop, I be the first to take it up. Others wait. That's what I got to do. Father, this is also a case of drawing parameters; having boundaries.
I truly over stretched myself.