North Node in Taurus - need to find out who they truly are before they can have right partner

May 9 aft

North node In Taurus
They are looking for total, permanent commitment, a mutually empowering and completely dependable.
To successfully establish this type of relationship, they must be discriminating and find someone with similar energy and values. The shared goals must be innately valuable to each of term as individuals.
For this to happen, they must first get in touch with their own values. They must become strong in themselves, aware of what they want and tune in to what is real and figure out who they are as individuals.

Soul
On hindsight now, I m glad it didn't work out with Y.  He is not my match and he is going for traditional marriage. Also I m not into full vegetarian. I m not into Isha life style.
Just as I couldn't be with Z due to traditional marriage and also no Isha sadhana path.
Both of them not suitable for me.
And the old me would not be strong enough to keep to my own values. I be bulldozed by them out of fear of loss of validation.

North node in Taurus
The challenge is to establish their own energy system and figure out who they are as individuals. As their energy becomes stronger, they will automatically attract mates of similar energy with whom they can form successful partnership.

Soul
It took me four years but I finally break free from Isha volunteering life style.
Father, I m ready to move with my own life style. It's both world and spiritual.
I will always have Isha Sadhana path and my world of pleasure/senses.
They are me.
Finally see all the breakups were perfect, as it should be.

North node in Taurus
Any fields that emphasises appreciation of the physical aspect of life and five senses would be enjoyable and profitable.
Farming, construction, engineering, cooking or physical education. They are better off using their talents on something tangible value, which gives them a sense of stability.

Affirmation on self validation.
When I live by my own values, I feel good about myself
When I satisfy my own needs and the expressed needs of others, I build a stable base for relationships.
If I m comfortable, I am on path.
What others think of me is none of my business.

Soul
One of these days will start baking since I love dessert. And no one seems to be able to bake those that I like.

North node in past lives
They fed all their power, energy and charisma to their more powerful soul mate and in exchange receive validation and appreciation from that one person as acknowledgement of their worth.

Soul
No wonder I go on auto mode in local Isha. Tried a few rounds to break free and finally did.

North node in past lives
In this incarnation, therefore, when they merge too closely or quickly with another person, they experience betrayal as a warning that they should keep their own boundaries, values and spiritual ethics.

Soul
True.
Suddenly tot that's where Seven of Hearts at play when I m not keeping my own parameters.