Saturday, June 7, 2014

North Node in Aquarius - living authentically is the validation I need

May 8
Woke up at 3 am feeling hot. Body well rested. Went back to sleep and had a dream. Woke up from dream by alarm and feel bit groggy.
Did Bhoota Shuddi and sang guru pooja. Did my cat stretch these days.
Angarmadhana was okay. Seem bit out of focus cos wondering about my session today. Laugh loads and also silence period on child sitting posture. I look forward to this. Surya kriya is good.
Breathing was lovely in arashidharna posture.
Shakti was good as I was focused. Was singing in the end.
Shambavi was good. This time I can sit silently in arashidharna posture. No tot of bending forward. Just sat in arashidharna posture with breathe watching and head tilted. New experience for me. Guess turning into awareness.
Good I had switched alarm at 7.03 am so I can then sit till the very end.


May 8 aft
Now at fine dining restaurant. It's been nearly one and half years. There is smile on my face. Good food still make me happy. I feel I m back.
Just go back to what makes me happy. I m true Taurean, gourmet food makes me happy. Been a long while since I pamper myself with gourmet food.

Now that I have let go of local Isha, I m back. Even now am excited about my work. Spoke to L today and it turns out I was right. She was truly hands off.

North node in Aquarius
Life doesn't want to hurt them but they ultimately hurt themselves by resisting the timing of the universe. They are learning to accept what happens in their lives as appropriate in order to take the next step.
These folks are learning that when one door closes, another opens.


Soul
Just finished reading North node in eleventh house. Can't really identify except going with the flow, astrology inclined and new age and also on approval from others.

North node in Taurus
The Achilles' heel they need to be aware of is seeking self worth through others. ("I can only feel okay about myself through the validation of others") which can lead them into the trap of an unending search for a soul mate ("If I have this one special person's energy, I'll feel complete")
In truth, they can only achieve a sense of completeness within themselves - it will never come as a by-product of a relationship, even a soul mate.
No matter how much support or validation they get from others, they always think they need more. Infact validation from others is a false barometer of whether they are on the right track. Living according to standards they know are right for them, regardless of what others think, will help them develop a sense of self-worth.

Soul
Took me a few years and I m finally back.

A tot occurred to me. Maybe time for me to cook or bake. Looks like no one will be doing it for me.
Mmm, be good if can do with G


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