Being in aloneness is my growth path; not a punishment

Mar 19 mor 1

Breakthrough - this is not a punishment

Being in a rship is easy for me as I have high tolerance and I believed the success of rship is more important than my own success..

Being alone is difficult is difficult. On the surface I m independent but beneath I have little values of my own. Being Ace I picked up new values. And hence no conflict in rship cos I picked up their value and with my high tolerance and my fear of being rejected, I avoid conflict. Hence rship with me is easy.

But being alone is difficult. And hence this life I m meant to be alone first, to build up my values. Otherwise no point in rship.
My self growth is in me being alone, giving myself what I want.
Others' self growth are being in a rship. Most people need to be in rship to grow..

That's why I always wonder why other fight in a rship. I never fight with Z. Only when I was sad with him for not putting us first that I break out. Even then I always go back. Others said if I seldom 'fight' with Z, thats the measure of successful rship..
Alas..it is 'fake'...

Alas. Me not here to suffer. Me not here to be punished. Me not here to be made different. I m just the opposite of others and my growth is being alone and not in rship. I m inherently good in rship. I m good with people.

With my little vales I surrender easily. Hence I m receptive to Existence, to energy. To Devi, to Dhynalinga, to Sadhguru. I m easy in rship

That's why BSP, being in people doesn't affect me. It doesn't overwhelm me. That's me in life.

The rship with the flower took me by surprise.