Sannidhi, truly my saviour

Mar 23 eve
Today pooja was healing. Sannidhi the Best investment of my life. Gave me so much comfort.

I cried for the fear over office matters, over office closing shop, maybe me losing job or going to work for sister company.
Just cried out to Sadhguru.
Such comfort. Best 'husband' in the world. Just giving. Love Sadhguru.

Did 3 cycle of Linga chanting. Nice. Cry a bit that finally Z is gone. Cried that Z finally grew into the man that I want to marry. Someone who is loyal to spouse and family, financially stable instead of chasing big money and going into heavy financial commitment and devoted to Devi. Even attending advance Isha program. Cried that I can't have him. Cried that he is gone.

But later a tot came, we are not meant to be. What I want is for him to comfort my need for security, to give me what I want . So it is past. I can give myself what I want.
 Today I am able to like his Facebook sharing. A breakthrough.

Guess me pining for Z is because of fear of losing office.