My first Rudraksh after 6 and half year in Isha.

Mar 25

Woke up in the middle of morning because of cold, so interrupted sleep. Must check the aircond setting.
Woke up upon alarm at 7 am but feeling bit tired...doze bit and woke up at 7.12 am.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Guru Pooja.
Did Surya Kriya preparatory steps. Good Surya Kriya with good feet alignment. Right elbow less painful.
Yogaasanas in the standing cycle were quite good...laughing during Trikoasanas.
Today did my first Shoulder stand after nearly 5 months of stopping. It just flow naturally.
Glad to have this back. Will do the refresher with teacher in May, meanwhile just do on my own.
Yogaasanas..truly amazing...its like loving your body.
Breathing meditation was okay..
Shakti was good..first 2 cycle of Kapala Bhakti was focused..lost track in third cycle....was singing at the end.

Shambavi was good too...was singing in the end.

Ended the sadhana nearly 11 am.
A long one today.

Wore my rudraksh today...my very first.
After conditioning with milk yesterday I left it on top of Sannidhi cloth.
Feels like Sadhguru gave me...
I feel like I am married to Isha
This is an outward reflection of my inner.
Alas coming out in the open.

External influence
The Rebel
The powerful and authoritative figure in this card is clearly the master of his own destiny. On his shoulder is an emblem of the sun, and the torch he holds in his right hand symbolizes the light of his own hard-won truth. 

Whether he is wealthy or poor, the Rebel is really an emperor because he has broken the chains of society's repressive conditioning and opinions. He has formed himself by embracing all the colors of the rainbow, emerging from the dark and formless roots of his unconscious past and growing wings to fly into the sky. His very way of being is rebellious - not because he is fighting against anybody or anything, but because he has discovered his own true nature and is determined to live in accordance with it. The eagle is his spirit animal, a messenger between earth and sky. 

The Rebel challenges us to be courageous enough to take responsibility for who we are and to live our truth.


Soul
No longer afraid of how others perceive me.
No longer afraid of how my family judge me...if they do..
No longer afraid of being called Hinduism...

The last 2 days, opening up to a colleague who is also a friend. I can now say my truth despite fear in personal rship. For PY she said hers is opposite. She can say the truth without fear in personal and not professional rship.
A tot occured to me..
I am confident in professional rship and hence and can be fearless...whereas she is confident in personal rship and can be fearless..
Which comes first...being confident..then become fearless...or become fearless and then confidence...Guess chicken and egg.


This week What to do card is true.
4. What’s needed for resolution?

 The moment you become miserly you are closed to the basic phenomenon of life: expansion, sharing. The moment you start clinging to things, you have missed the target--you have missed. Because things are not the target, you, your innermost being, is the target--not a beautiful house, but a beautiful you; not much money, but a rich you; not many things, but an open being, available to millions of things.
 This card challenges us to look at what we are clinging to, and what we feel we possess that is so valuable it needs to be protected by a fortress. It needn't be a big bank balance or a box full of jewels--it could be something as simple as sharing our time with a friend, or taking the risk of expressing our love to another. Like a well that is sealed up and becomes stagnant from disuse, our treasures become tarnished and worthless if we refuse to share them. Whatever you're holding on to, remember that you can't take it with you. Loosen your grip and feel the freedom and expansiveness sharing can bring.