Challenges are contrast to allow us to choose again

Yesterday was feeling uptight cos received so many ad-hoc reporting deadline. These days, more aware, hence I calm myself down.

I don't accept that we create our external circumstance but I agreed that we create our emotional response.
Eh, our emotional response is our experience of the situation. If no emotional response, no experience and everything neutrel.
I can at least concede we create our response and hence perception and hence experience.
As to how to create our world - don't know yet.

Ask and it is given
Your conscious realisation of the Creative Process is not necessary in order for it to work.
As ur experience expands, ur desires expands.
With each receiving of what u ask for, u achieve a new vantage point from which you spontaneously ask again.
However, if u r conscious, u can then deliberately participate in your own expansion.

Soul - a tall order to meet. For now, I just focus on allowing well-beingness.

Ask and it is given
Sometimes our physical friends express their desires for a less diverse Universe. They long for a place where there are not so many unwanted things, a place where more things are exactly as they prefer them to be.

Soul - yeap, definitely my desires. I attract so much extreme experience. So much challenges. Why? Why make me suffer? Even if u thinks I can rise to the challenge, I think not a loving thing to do to me. If You love me, I won't have such extreme challenges. U name it, I got it.
When will this end?

Ask and it is given
You did not come forth into this physical experience that exist and whittle them down to a handful of good ideas upon which all of you agree, for that would lead to endedness, which cannot be.

This is an expanding Universe and all things must be Allowed.

In other words, for u to understand and experience what u desire, u must understand that which you do not desire, for, in order to be able to choose and focus, both must be present understood.

Soul - are You saying that since I never tot of my desire, You create or perhaps I attract all those extreme undesirable circumstances so that I can start to think of what I desire and choose again?

Still don't get it. I know about us attracting people to us, what is hidden in us. I know that once I am able to see what is hidden in me, express it and acknowledge it. I will be fine.

I also know that if we have self esteem issue, we will attract extreme situation to us to force us to say NO and choose again.

Ask and it is given.
You did not come forth to fix things. You did not come forth to try to get others to stop doing what they are doing and do something else.
You come forth understanding the value in the contrast and the balance in the variety.

Every physical being on ur planet is ur partner in co-creation, and if you would accept that and appreciate the diversity of beliefs and desires - all of u would have more expansive, satisfying, and fulfilling experience.

Soul - still not sure. But suddenly saw my bookmark ; At the heart of every action you perform is the intent to understand, accept and forgive.

Yea, my inner journey is for me to seek and find and understand what makes up Soul. What is next? To accept and love ME despite everything.
To forgive ME for not able to get things that I desire or perhaps didn't have faith to desire.

Osho - sorrow
the pain is just to make u more alert - because people become alert only when the arrow goes deep into their heart and wounds them. When life is easy, who cares.
The pain is not to make u miserable, the pain is to make you aware. And when u r aware, misery disappear.
To be aware, go deep within and experience it as it is, without blame or self-pity.

Soul - mmm, so my challenges is not to make me suffer or miserable or proclaim that I am not lovable. But is to make me aware. I need not pity me??
Does that mean I am unaware - yeap.

Osho - breakthrough
The dawn is not far away, but before you can reach the dawn, dark night has to be passed through. And as the dawn comes closer, the night will become darker.
Meditation will help u to pass thru the night.

Osho - awareness.
Mind can never be intelligent - only no-mind is intelligent
The awareness that is growing within u now is not any conscious "doing", nor do u need to struggle to make something happen.
Any sense that u might have that u have been groping in th dark is dissolving.

Father, finally today I grasped my week's message.
After guru pooja, I tot what is next. Nothing came. Jus when I let go on last Wed nite, yday and today my meditation becomes deeper. Amen.