Trust Life

Father, thank You so much for coming into my life.
This morning I was thinking I am facing a Female Hitler (my current boss), so just tell her what she wants as long as it doesn't implicate my professional integrite. Is that losing me? Yea, but my journey is self-anhiliation, so she is a perfect tool.

Osho
1. Issue - Totality - Developing the knack of being total in responding to whatever comes, as it comes is one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself. Taking one step through life at a time, giving each step your complete attention and energy, can bring a wondrous new vitality

Soul - a timely reminder, I tend to see too many things at one time. Just be with the moment.

2. Internal - Laziness.
Be alert. No matter how fuzzy the slippers, how tasty the pina colada, there are skies upon skies still waiting to be explored.

Soul - yea, I was feeling comfortable with my current Team. Looks like things r not so rosy. I need to be alert.
Another tot came in on d new vacancy. For the first time in my life, I am not bothered if they come back on the FD position. Looking at my Regional team, always on call, recalling my resistance. Was thinking just give in n kow tow to my current boss, my life would be ok and I need not be on-call.

3. External Influence
When you trust life, something immense opens up. Life become full of God, overflowing.

Soul - that is what I believe and expect. I always have a good feeling that I be guided by God all the way. The latest stint in current company finally overcome any obstacle I have on sufferingisblessing. It is the truth. I found meditation. I recall a few times I thought of writing to Oprah Winfrey and wanting to share with her that our contemplation and will power to do the right thing, can only carry us so far. We needed the feeling too. We needed our Source and Isha yoga is one of the easiest tool. (Had this 3 or 4 times already.)

4. What is needed for resolution.
I am not separate from the whole, and there is no need to seek and search for any destiny on my own.

Soul - trusting life and take things easy. This month already felt bit overwhelmed. Things will happen.

5. The resolution - Change.
Life repeats itself mindlessly - unless you become mindful, it will go on repeating like a wheel.

Soul - not sure but I know I am changing the pattern with my current boss. I didn't stand hard on my belief or personality and for the first time I kow tow and I will also try to say things to put her in good mood. For the first time, I admit defeat and even surrender.
With Your Guidance, the wheel is stopped. I attracted bitches into my life and now I will attract Goody into my life. Meanwhile, play along. Learn from my general manager, she is a real pro in hiding her feelings.
Not sure if this is the last stop, like my colleague said another 3 years to go before the current boss retire.

This too will pass

Afternoon
This is the company I am most weak at. My performance is the lowest. Now I know why I was affected my current boss use the strategy of lowering my self-esteem. I had believe I am not a star performer and hence she activated my thought and I was down these few days. Well, it will stop now.