Seeking acceptance in job; Liking others is liking yourself

Ask and it is Given
You must find ways of holding yourself consistently in vibrational harmony with those desires in order to receive their manifestation.
Attention to ur desire or to absence of ur desire - will bring u what is in ur attention.
Whatever u predominantly think about, ur life experience reflect those things.
Nothing can occur in your life experiences without your invitation of it through your thought.
You get what u think about and equally important, when u aware of what u r thinking.
Your desires and your beliefs must be a vibrational match in order for you to receive that which you desire.

Soul
I seldom think of what I desire. I am afraid to see cos I afraid I cannot get and then I be envious and felt bad. It is like I don't window shop cos what the point of checking out the goodies when u can't buy.

Believe
Expect
Get


Desire (which I am getting)
Good food
Bargain purchase (value for money
Good staff
Good family n friends

Desire (which I am not getting)
Good partner
Don't have to suffer, less challenges (Easy life)
Acceptance without having to prove myself

Beliefs:
Positive -
Food
Staff
Spirituality
Friends
Family
Bargain purchase (value for money)

Neutral -
Colleague
Job roles

Bad -
Boss
Job package
Physical exercise, include dancing

I have very little desire, I don't dare to desire cos I think I can't have. I am now creating new desires:
Good job with balanced life
Good pay
FOC travel
Good food
Good boss
Privacy of a nice place of my own, surrounded by beautiful things
House with living room facing a nice garden with trees

Soul - what I am vibrating now is worry about job, thinking job is so challenging, thinking I have no energy.
Aiya, my boss is a bitch and I attracted her into my life. But at least she has business sense, although no leadership. So, that's an improvement.
Job - my new FM is here and my Snr Accounts Exec has picked up, IT Exec is also here. HR Admin also here. I have a good team. I have good leadership and I can do my job. Maister Survey also confirmed my leadership.

I admitted to my Regional CFO that this is my lowest performance job. I have always been the Star wherever I worked. My Regional CFO said I am good in my job and I did overcome the job hurdle in 6 month after I joined. I do have Regional CFO's support and he wants me to stay. While I am not a Star, but I fulfilled d role. So, my current boss’s attempt at lowering my self esteem in job is just that. It is not real.
Yea, I hav reached a good place.

Soul - suddenly a tot came. We are looking for partner to accept us. I was also looking for a company/job to accept me.

Since partner is not there. Job is d one which can say I am accepted. Acceptance in job equates to being a Star performer.
We r seeking acceptance in everywhere.

Jus like when my boss scold and ignore me. I was sad because I don't have her acceptance. When I can fulfill d job task, I was sad cos I cannot fulfill expectation and hence cannot be accepted by my job and company.

Seeking acceptance is seeking acknowledgement of our identification; seeking love in everywhere except seeking acceptance from our own self.

When we can accept ourselves, we no longer need to seek ourselves elsewhere. Amen.

Suddenly tot of window shopping, creating vibration for good things to come to me.

Yea, laziness I tot jus to meditate and end here. Jus do the releasing. Looks like the incident with my boss is actually spur me to another level - to get me ready to realise I have desire, I can get what I desire. Thanks for the incident. It is real helpful. I am meant to go deeper.

Acceptance is Love.

Osho card - resolution
Change - Life repeats itself mindlessly - unless you become mindful, it will go on repeating like a wheel.

Soul - yeap, as long as I don't accept myself, I will continue to seek acceptance everywhere. Father, let me accept myself all the time. Now, there are certain time that I accept myself and I felt good. Its when I don't accept myself that I felt bad.

Afternoon
Yeap, accepting myself. That's all.

All d healimg;
Anger
Hurt
Guilt
Fear
Acceptance
Love.

Only wit acceptance, come love.


Ask and it is given
To the degree you feel blessed and expect good things to come to you, this indicates your degree of resistance.
Now you need to learn to release any habit of thought that have resulted in your disallowing of the Stream of Well-beingness.

Evening
I was feeling puzzled on why I can still like my current boss despite her treatment of me.
Am I glutton for punishment? Or am I being fake and I don’t know it?

When I was meditating, a tot came to me. People who like people like themselves
The extent u like others is the extent u like urself
My boss seldom like people, so she doesn't like herself.

Now me, still liking current boss despite all.
I like her despite her weakness; could it be possible that I like myself too despite my weakness.
Hurray!

My meditation. It was so blissful that I cried of thankfulness. God, You have blessed me.
I had tot of Sadhguru's wife. I told her I will be back with her. Me, spending some time with her.

Thanks to Sadhguru, who initiated me. Amen.
I am now able to look at Sadhguru pix. Its been a long way.
I love me lah.
Become love and reach out!