Whatever i needed in my inner journey will come to me

This morning I woke up to alarm clock at 8 am, but don't feel like waking up and adjust the clock to 9 am.

But when I start to sleep back, I tot of me wanting to do epileptical exercise and yet have to wash hair. Suddenly a tot occurred to me; do meditation, followed by epileptical exercise and Way of Heart cd. Of course ego said, that's too long, we would be too hungry by then. Then a tot came, aiyah the whole session will end by 10.30 am, just like my swimming time. I still wasn't convinced and then suddenly a 2nd tot came and I tot of sis going to her church and I too want to go to my church, but of my own making, so my church on Sunday will be epileptical machine with Way of d Heart cd.

So, after all d thru n fro tots in my mind, woke up 8.20 am n do meditation and ends abt 9.23 am and I start epileptical machine and with Way of d Heart cd at the background. I exercised and listened abt half an hour and then stop exercising and listen to the cd.

It is the message about acknowledging and accepting my own creation, especially when it is 'sad' and not be judgmental. Towards the end, d channeler asked us to close our eyes and be aware of our creation now and suddenly I cried and cried cause I was so thankful that my Source attracted all the spiritual guidance and 'accidents' to me, despite me having all sort of resistance.

Again, something I needed and it is directed back to me. I had the cd a few years back but not able to relate to it. And now finally, I am ready.

Jus now received sms from my meditation teacher to volunteer for d children program. I am not keen. I am stil not keen on volunteering, except for sathsang.
Perhaps it can be said I don't have outward transformation but I felt real good within. Now that I read Carl Jung's autobiography, I am more accepting of my lack of outward activity level and my acceptance of my exciting and exhilarating inward activity level.

I take this path for me and me alone. It is my destiny to search and know me as I am created by God. I will be guided by many channels and Isha is a tool and not the end.


Ask and it is given.
Your emotion - simply, purely and only - are about your relationship with your Source.
When u r in alignment with who you really are, you thrive and to the extent u do not allow this alignment, u do not thrive.
All emotion fall within the range of joy to disempowerment.
You create my moulding Energy. You mold it through your power of focus - by thinking of things, remembering things and imagining things.

Soul
I was thriving for 4 days and now m down. I am very glad of my progress. I guess I expected too much. Just becos I had d calling, doesn't mean 100% thriving cos I still have resistance. So, even if I am misaligned, is ok that is still vacilitate.